she held my hand .ᐟ gojo satoru

she told me she loves me

she asked me if i was free tonight and i actually had plans to have dinner with suguru. but we both agreed to reschedule because this might be it!! she's been nervous lately so i think this really is it.

i told her i was free and she invited me out for dinner.

we went to our favourite fancy restaurant which she paid for--i had no idea when she managed to grab both my phone and wallet away from me. then she took me around the city to take in it's beauty.

we held hands the entire time, as friends i guess LOL, and i let her take the lead. we ended up at a couple of food stands actually and this time i paid. who knew mini taiyaki were even better than the regular size?!

and it was fun, being on a date with her even though she never said it was a date and we've been in this situation plenty of times. it's just, there wasn't a pending confession at the end of the night.

eventually we reached a hill with a view. a couple other people were around--mostly couples--and we blended right in. she tugged me to a spot to look over at the city and we just watched it, popping mini taiyaki's in our mouths every now and then.

and i had no idea how she was going to approach the topic since we were literally standing in silence. maybe she got carried away with the scenery that she forgot to talk. maybe she was thinking too hard about how to talk. maybe she just forgot all together. i thought maybe i should speak up then and tell her that i loved her.

but then suddenly she turned to me and said, in quite a loud voice, "s-satoru! i love you!" and her lips quivered, eyes became glossy, and her fists clenched.

i wanted to tease her so bad, ask her if she meant she loved me as a friend, but my heart was absolute goo and my knees jelly at the determination in her expression--the eagerness to hear my response in the way she leaned just a little closer and studied my face a little harder.

i couldn't help my smile and the way i had to bring her in for a hug with only one arm (since the other was occupied with our snack!). i kissed the top of her head and gave her a squeeze to which she laughed at. she hugged me tight, our hugs now formally meaning something else.

but she's always hugged me the same. she's always loved me the same.

and i told her, "i love you, too."