Letters from Dalhousie to Tulsipur

Part 2-Anirudh

My dear stupid wife,

I don't know, what is going on your stupid mind these days. Has the winter of Dalhousie made you numb to my unsaid, unexpressed emotions?

I am extremely upset at you Bondita. How could you think that you are a burden on my life and my happiness?

My life started truly, when I met you Bondita. I had been living a worthless life filled with the false dazzling lights around me. You showed me the true purpose of my life.

You had from the first moment of your entrance had gained a special place in my life.

I know my behaviour with you has not always been the epitome of perfection but I am trying to mend my ways Bondita. Don't I deserve a second chance?

I know, my actions don't guarantee any of that. But I still hope that you give me a chance again.

As you were growing up and became 14 years of age, I had started to notice the features of your face and the expressions of your face more and more. And that scared me Bondita, so much that I started running away from you and our marriage.

I know I have done a grave mistake by deciding to bring Manorama in our lives but I regret that action every single day Bondita.

I had been attracted towards her bravery and had been trying to save you from the words of our society at the same time. And I took a wrong step in trying to do that Bondita.

If I had just explained to you about everything with a calm mind, then probably Manorama wouldn't exist in our life right!!!

I know you hate me for committing polygamy. Otherwise, you wouldn't have left the next day itself without informing me and taking help of Somnath to reach Dalhousie.

I know the harsh words and my fake loving actions with her had caused you to shed bloody tears Bondita. And I would regret it for the rest of my life.

I understood after your leaving, that Manorama had gotten attracted towards me and whenever she made me coffee or tried to even chat with me all I could see was your face in front of my eyes darling.

I couldn't ask her to leave as well for, she was a women living in a male patriarchal society.

We had a huge fight and I explained to her as best as I could.

During the fight, All I could decipher was how utterly, madly wrong I was to reject your love in the name of my ethics.

Yesterday was Manorama's marriage with Kaka's friends son Girish. He is an engineer, who works at South India. They have left for their abode.

I may sound selfish and utterly a jerk pardon my language, but Bondita I am feeling relived as her breathing near me reminded me of the constant pain I had showered upon you.

One person was more happy than I was Bondita and that was your beloved Kaka sasur ji. He never liked her from the first day itself and no one was more pleased at her farewell than him.

No one here forgot you for a second Bondita. You are entwined in every aspect of our life.

No one ever realized, how the little Bondita became so connected with our lives.

We all miss you terribly. Baba and Kaka still call out your name during tea time. They yell out your name whenever they need something. Old habits die hard huh!!

Somnath misses his Boudi and her pampering session. Batuk misses his best friend and I miss my wife.

Batuk has asked me to say that, to never consider Malika your best friend as that place only belongs to him.

His face was worth watching, when he read about Malika.

Somnath wants you to pray for his exams as he believes that your prayers are his strongest weapon.

Kaka prays for your safety every day. Baba has listened to your words and has been taking a less workload on his shoulders. He now spends more time with the family.

Sampoorna and his relationship is going great. Sampoorna has changed Bondita. She has became the person you used to describe to me. She takes care of everyone at home but she is not you, meri Jaan.

For me, everything reminds me of you. The food has became tasteless and I have stopped having coffee for only the coffee you make gives me that relief I seek. You have completely ruined me Biwi (wife).

I have read your newspaper articles and they have made me proud of you.

Your words had taken me to a different world altogether. You have an amazing talent. I am extremely proud of  you. But don't write for the sake of money Bondita. Write it only if you feel like writing.

And I know your self respect matters a lot to you and that's why you fought so hard for the scholarship but darling your expenses are not a burden on me. They never were and never will be. I miss that Bondita who used to demand from her Patibabu to take her to the bazar. I hate this version of you. Who is trying to cut me off from her life.

No matter how much you try darling and no matter what law comes to pass, you will remain my wife forever. I will not let anything take you away from me 'Bou' (wife).

I had filed the petition to safeguard other girls future and lives.

But I am not a selfless man Bondita. To sacrifice you for the sake of this society. Yes, the law will come to pass soon but it will not affect our marriage sweetheart. I will make sure of it.

Your warden had sent me the pictures of you dancing on the annual function. I was mesmerized watching your photo. You looked so beautiful in it.

Everyone was looking at you enchanted in the photos. And I felt extremely jealous as in the photos the boys were drooling over you.

You are not leaving me Bondita. Anirudh Roy Chowdhury only has one wife and that is Bondita Anirudh Roy Chowdhury. And she will always be so.

I may sound selfish to you but I am happy being selfish, If that gets me you by my side for eternity.

Take care of yourself and focus on your studies as much as possible.

I know you will always come out on top. Both in life and in studies.

I have to leave for court now. Take care of yourself and I will try to take care of my ownself, which solely belongs to you.

Apni (my) Bondita ki
          Patibabu
Anirudh Roy Chowdhury

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