Letters from Dalhousie to Tulsipur

Part 3-Bondita

Dear Barrister Babu,

You don't need to console me by saying such false words. I know I am not anything more than a 'Responsibility' for you.

Always has been and always will be. Nothing will change it ever that I am sure of.

I do not write articles for the sake of money at all. I am disgusted that you think so low of me. Money is just an added bonus. However, you truly have hurt me by thinking so low of me.

No, the winter of Dalhousie has not made me stupid at all. How dare you to think like that! I am neither stupid nor your darling or anything else. I have a name and you better call me by that name just as before.

We have never been for nicknames nor we will ever be..

I don't know, how much mad you are becoming day by day to say those words about me. I don't care what happened between you and Manorama Didi. I don't care whatever happened between you both. She was a part of your life but she was never a part of mine.

Your second wife or her thoughts regarding you doesn't make any difference to me.

But congratulations, for the attraction was from both sides between you and your second wife.

I don't consider her important enough to fit her in my life. So, please don't write to me about her.

Even if she was attracted to you or you regret your attraction for her, makes me feel nothing at all.

Whatever happens between you both, it has stopped mattering to me.

Maybe, it is a withdrawal syndrome or simply I don't get bothered by you.

Perhaps, I am simply out of that "Childhood Infatuation" phrase that I had developed on you back then, according to you.

The law will come to pass and as far as I know girls will get a choice to decide their future probably. If that happens, then I want to be free.

For I cannot see you suffering all your life for me. I would urge to to move on and fall in love with someone else.

It would be easy to do so I believe, maybe I would fall for someone as well.

There are a lot of guys that propose to me everyday. My bag is filled with love letters daily.

Wasn't it what you wanted for me? You wanted me to explore everything but our marriage! I will fulfill your wish this time.

Maybe I will answer one of them after graduating from Dalhousie.

Thank kakasasur ji for constantly praying for me. Ask him to take care of himself and tell him to take his new medicines daily. Don't let him eat sweets at all, no matter how much he wants to. It's not good for his health.

Ask sasur ji to make it a habit to practice yoga everyday and not leave it halfway.

Tell Sampoorna Didi that, I am very happy for her and sasur ji. And I wish her all the happiness in the world.

Tell Som dada, I would always pray for his success in the medical examination. Ask him to not take any stress for I believe he will pass it with flying colours.

And tell Batuk that, Malika has a special place in my heart as my first female friend but my best friend will always be him. And no one can ever take his place.

Malika is similarly very jealous of Batuk's existence and quite literally without even meeting him dislike him thoroughly. She is quite possessive of me as I am her only friend in Dalhousie.

Birristra Babu, you had once told me that, what I was feeling was the manifestation of my teenage hormones and it will disappear once I grow up.

I am saying the same thing to you today, whatever you are feeling for me is nothing more than an infatuation probably.

It will go away very soon and I think the only reason you are feeling all these for me is for you are just sad at your second wife's marriage to another man.

You will get over it. I know you think I am trying to cut you off from my life but it's not true.

If I was doing something like that then I won't even be writing letters to you.

Take care of yourself Barrister Babu.

You don't need to be jealous of any boys here in Dalhousie. I know, what my ambition is and this time I won't get distracted from my path due to my 'infatuation' for you or anyone else.

Take care of your cases. And may you always win your cases, that I pray for wholeheartedly.

Don't stop drinking coffee for the sake of me, I will not remain your wife for long. Sooner or later, you will have to get used to the coffee made by someone else.

Try to drink the coffee at home by Bihari babu. Otherwise, you will develop an acute headache as you can't function without coffee at all.

Coffee is part of your daily life, don't cut it off for anyone else.

Try not to shout or stay angry at the family members. Batuk had told me, how rough you are behaving with everyone.

They are your family and they don't deserve it at all. Don't lose their love for you in your anger.

Give everyone my love and take care of yourself and I wish you best of luck for your cases.

Yours Sincerely,
Bondita

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