Friendship isn't always stable. There will be times that it'll quiver, crumble, fall. You just have to be courageous, brave, strong, and understanding enough to make it stay still again.
Unfortunately for me, I realized it too late. But I am trying to repair it... Kahit hindi madali.
From xandernirvana@gmail.com
To seraphiguevan@gmail.com
kaishajeana@gmail.com
arisantos@gmail.com
reinaviolette@gmail.com
There's a lot of things I want to say but I will start by saying, I am sorry. Deeply and truly sorry. My actions are unforgivable. I was impulsive, I did left you four hanging, clueless about my reason.
However, hadn't I done what I did, maybe our friendship was now broken. Mas maganda na ang ganitong ako lamang ang napalayo sa inyo, relasyon ko lang sa inyo ang nasira, kaysa naman sabay-sabay tayong magkakawatak-watak.
Sending you an email isn't enough to express my side and my reason. I hope you can give me a chance to talk to you four in person, to ask for forgiveness. Hoping we could meet tomorrow, 4 PM at the café we used to hangout.
Sincerely yours,
Nirvana
I needed to go around and ask people closed to them about their email. Hindi ko iyon nakuha sa ibang kaibigan nila dahil hindi raw nila alam. Good thing Ravi helped me. Nakuha niya ang Gmail account ng mga kaibigan ko sa pamamagitan ng paghingi nito sa university na pinasukan nila para sa college.
Ravi pulled some strings since his family is influential. Hindi iyon magandang gawin but I was desperate to find a way on how to contact them.
The social media accounts I created when I was in States was no use since I didn't add nor followed them. I tried to stalk their accounts pero lahat naka-private at hindi ako maka-send ng kahit message request man lamang.
Hindi naman pwede na bigla-bigla na lang akong kumatok sa pintuan ng bahay nila kagaya ng ginawa ko kay Jia. They might close the door the moment they see me. Wala nga'ng kasiguraduhan na gusto pa nila akong makita o makausap ulit.
Si Jia kasi ay sigurado akong maiintindihan niya ako. At alam ko na kahit anong mangyari, kaibigan at kaibigan niya pa rin ako. That's how Jia is. Kaya naman malapit na malapit siya sa puso ko. Kapatid, as what I've said.
"Nine-nerbyos ako." utas ko habang katabi si Ravi sa kotse.
Ravi insisted on driving me to the cafe. Kanina kasi ay sabi ko h'wag na dahil baka matagalan pa ako ngunit hindi siya nagpapigil. He wants to make sure that when things go worst, he'll be there for me.
I arrived 15 minutes before the said time. Ayaw kong mahuli kagaya noong panahon. I was named as the latecomer of the group, but now, I will show up before all of them to express my seriousness and sincerity in this. I am eager to have them back but will not persuade them if they really doesn't want to anymore.
"Dito ka na lang." utos ko kay Ravi nang nasa tapat na kami ng café.
"Take care, Nirvana. It'll all be alright." he displayed a small, comforting smile that somehow eases my heart.
"Salamat, Rav." I held his hand quickly before hopping out of the car.
Habang naglalakad papasok ay hindi magkamayaw sa pagtakbo ng mabilis ang puso ko.
What if none of them shows up? What if they chose to ignore my request rather than entertaining it? Paano kung... paano kung wala na talaga akong puwang sa buhay nila?
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