Broken

Chapter twelve

Jessie 

After hearing Skye's confession last night Elliott and I let her sleep with us. Elliott was behind me and Skye laid facing me. She has her face between my neck and upper chest with her hand on my stomach. I rubbed her back to lull her to sleep.

When I woke the next morning, she was tracing on my stomach, her way of talking to the twins. I lay there letting her continue to talk to them as they lightly kick the area she was tracing. I felt a lack of presence from Elliott and the smell of breakfast told me it was probably her.

Sarah walks in, probably to check on us and smiles at what Skye was doing. "What is she doing," she asks curious. 

"Talking to them," I choke quietly as tears roll down my cheeks. "She's telling them how much she misses her mother, how she considers me mother now, how happy she is to be with us, how excited she is to meet them and can't wait for them to get here."

I start sobbing softly and she looks up from my stomach with concern. She wipes my tears as Sarah continues to watch us. "Are you okay," she signs with concern. 

I smile through the tears and she smiles in return. I kiss her forehead and tell her breakfast is ready. We climb out of bed and to my surprise, she hugs Sarah. Sarah hesitates a moment before returning the hug. Sarah is the only one other Elliott and myself who knows how to sign. They have gotten close, but this is the first she's shown any affection towards her.

We've been signing as we talk with the others even when Skye isn't around in hopes that they will pick up faster. They have picked up some, but its jumbled so when they try to communicate with her, she laughs. They always look to one of us for what they said but we just laugh. 

"Jessie, can you hear me," Elliott says in a worried whisper, holding my face in her hands. 

I realize I'm sitting at the table and she's knelt between my legs with tears rolling down her cheeks."I'm sorry," I say in a distracted whisper. 

She laughs through broken sobs and hugs loose around my stomach. I notice that Sarah and Skye are in tears too and sign my apology to Skye. "Daddy has been trying to talk to you for over ten minutes."

Tears fill my eyes not realizing how lost in thought I was. All I could do was apologize over and over again. Elliott gives me a kiss and I found it distracting. I moan in the kiss and pull Elliott closer to deepen the kiss

Moments later I break from the kiss, panting for breath and Elliott looks at me with raised eyebrows,  breaths ragged. I push her away from me and step out in the cold winter air. I hear as someone followed me outside and turn to see Sarah. 

Tears were rolling down my cheeks and she takes me in her arms. "What's wrong Jessie," she asks with concern. "Is this about what Skye was telling the twins?"

I scrunch my hands at her sides as she nits the nail on the head of what's bothering me. "I'm scared Sarah. My ex beat me, causing me to lose the baby. I'm scared that there's a chance that I'll lose the twins too," I choke in broken sobs. "I can't lose them Sarah, it would break me, break me more than I already am."

We just stood there, in the cold as she held me, rubbing my back comfortly. "I feel broken too. The day I came here, wasn't my first stop. I went home to surprise my fiancee. I was the one surprised. She was sleeping with my best friend while I was away on tour. I walked in on them in our bed and she was pregnant with his child. It's why I'm afraid to make a move with Jamie. I feel if we start something..." she chokes in broken sobs and I couldn't blame her.

"I promise you, Jamie has never been in any relationship. I saw the way you two were looking at each other that day. You won't know if you don't try," I choke in a soothing whisper and we both let out calming breaths.