Virulent | L.H

bloody knuckles

Luke's POV:

"Was it seriously necessary to act like that?" Ashton raises his voice to ask me.

"Yeah, I think it was. She is going to fucking kill herself if she starts this shit again, you wouldn't understand," 

"And you do, Luke??" Calum erupts finally. "You only know what we told you, same as Ashton. You did not have to see her the way Michael and I did so just shut the hell up already. I'm tired of hearing it. Stop acting like you care so much when all you're doing is weaponizing this to start arguments with her!" Before I could even comprehend what he said he had already started storming off.  Ashton and I just looked at each other in minor shock because we hadn't seen Calum get like that before. 

I sit back on the couch and release a heavy, stress filled breath. Shortly after I feel my phone buzz.

'You free rn??'

'Yeah, I'll be over in 10'

'K <3'

Aspen. We haven't been talking for long, maybe a couple weeks. She is a good distraction and hopefully will help me get over Alex. Maybe. I mean do I really even want to get over her? 

I know I kissed Alex last night and now I am about to go hook up with some girl but honestly I think all of my morals were threw out sometime late last year. I don't want Lex finding out about this though because that would be... a big problem. She says that she is not the jealous type but her eyes tell me everything I need to know when she sees another girl around me. 

The good thing about her though is she never gets jealous over our fans. They could be all over me and she'd still be smiling from ear to ear, chatting and hugging everyone that comes in her path. I have always admired her gratitude towards them. 

Anyways, her finding out that I have a new fuck buddy/potential relationship would absolutely crush her. I don't intend on her finding out any time soon though and she won't.

Driving to Aspen's house felt like a lifetime, maybe it was just my guilty conscience eating at me the entire time. 

As soon as I get to her apartment and knock she opens the door revealing her tall 5'7 frame. Her eyes are dark and inviting as I step into her home without hesitation. As soon as the door shuts our lips attach. They are soft and warm but they still will never compare to Alex's. Part of my body feels disappointed that the person in front of me is not the one I desire the most but the other part that I dread the most will take anyone at this point. 

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A little time went by before I returned back to the place I share with my bandmates. I didn't linger at Aspens, she is an okay fuck but everything else is just kind of bland. 

I walk into the kitchen to see a sight that makes my stomach turn involuntarily. Michael and Alex are making pancakes and giggling, what the fuck are they so cozy for? I mean they are close but not the "lets make pancakes and giggle" type. They usually are more of the wrestling and video games type. I walk in and stand their for a minute waiting for one of them to sense my presence. Of course the first one to notice is Alex.

"Oh hey, where were you for so long?" she says as her smile falls slightly. 

"I was gone for like an hour and a half."

"Really? Alright," then she proceeds to go back to mixing what she has in the bowl in front of her. Michael didn't turn to look at me once.