BTS FF 7 stepbrothers in my life

Chapter twenty-five: Let her cry

Namjoon: "I don't want to hear it. Please go, I want to be alone right now."

You: "Don't push me away please. I didn't want this either."

Namjoon: "If you didn't want this, then why didn't you told us about it yesterday?"

You: "First of all, it wasn't up to me to tell you the news before our parents had talked about it. Who knows my mom would've changed her mind. And to continue, you've all been avoiding me the last couple of days. Do you think you would've even gave me a chance to talk about it?"

Namjoon: "I would have... But it doesn't matter anymore, you're leaving anyway."

You: "You're right..."

Namjoon was clearly a bit shocked with my words. I guess he thinks that I would've kept apologizing for what I did. He's wrong about it though. It doesn't work right now. Their emotions are in charge instead of their minds. Whatever I'll do or say, it won't change anything.

You: "Maybe it's better this way. So you can all breath again when I'm out of the house. So things can get back to the way they used to be. I'm sorry for not leaving or changing school immediately. But I'll be gone soon, I promise. So let's pretend. that we don't know each other, just like we did before everyone found out you were my stepbrothers. So we can both forget about each other as fast as we can. I'm sorry for everything but like you said, it doesn't matter anymore. We're splitting up anyway."

Before Namjoon had the chance to say a thing I ran away. I don't have a plan anymore. They're mad because I kept it a secret and I'm leaving, and I'm sad because I can't return their feelings.

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I kept running through the hallways until I got back to my locker. I placed my bag in it . I'm not going to look for the others. Namjoon seemed to be the most reasonable person to talk to right now. But if even he reacts like this, I can't imagine how the others might react when they see me. I'm not going to the cafeteria either, still upset with what happened at the rooftop earlier. I need to about it with someone. I can't tell the girls, the same goes for Lucas. Maybe I can call Rosé? This hallway doesn't seem to be a good place to call her. Maybe the bathroom? No... I don't want anyone to hear my conversation Maybe that old classroom? I'll do that, I'll go there. 

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The old classroom was really dark, the curtains are moved in front of the windows. Maybe the cleaning lady did it, since the school doesn't use this classroom anymore. I had my phone in my hand. I quickly unlocked it, immediately dialing Rosé's number. After a few seconds she picked up.

Rosé: "Y/N? Why are you calling me during lunch? Not that you can't of course, it's just the first time you're doing so."

Hearing Rosé's voice made me tear up. I don't now if it's because I miss her and I'm a bit homesick or it's because of what just happened. 

Rosé: "It's been a few days since we last spoke. How are things at home with your stepbrothers now?"

When she mentioned them something broke inside of me. I let my tears go and started crying. Not caring of Rosé could hear it or not.

Rosé: "Y/N? Oh my god are you alright? What happened? Why are you crying?"

You: "I'm such a terrible person Rosé."

I said that in between my sobs. I barley cry. This is the second time I've cried since I'm here but it had been a while before I came here. Rosé is the only one that has seen me cry before. Jin didn't see it since he ran away from me.