Butterfly

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곁에 머물러줄래?
Will you stay by my side?
내게 약속해줄래?
Will you promise me?
손 대면 날아갈까? 부서질까?
Will it fly? or break if I touch it?
겁나, 겁나, 겁나.
Scared, scared, scared.
시간을 멈출래.
Wanna stop time.
이 손간이 지나면
After this moment
없어던 일이 될까? 널 잃을까?
Will it ever happen? Or will I lose you?
겁나, 겁나, 겁나.
Scared, scared, scared.

Surrounded by snow falling, tall trees covered in pretty snowflakes, reflection seen in the crystal clear, untouched like lake, and a big shining moon watching him from above.

All alone, he can't seem to forget the day he thought would have been the greatest of all.

But it isn't.

Why did he have to suffer all alone?

Did her really deserve all of this?

He sighed as he stared hopelessly at the bright moon.

"Know what? I actually envy you. You don't have to experience sufferings and pain. Heck, you even make other people happy just by looking at you. You're beautiful. You're delight of all sad people. You are the only light in the darkness. Me? Let's not talk about my life anymore." He said to the moon, occassionally wiping his lone tear.

"I never thought this would be extremely painful. Follow my dreams? I call bullshit on that." He looked down, kicking small stones that he sees on his way as he walks slowly towards the lake.

He watched as his reflection did what he just did. Of course.

He scrunched his nose in disgust.

He hates himself. He don't want to see his face.

But then, a little fella flew above his head.

"Butterfly?" he looked up from the lake, and saw the pretty little creature, flying just above him.

It reminded him of the song.

He smiled, and readied himself to sing.

"Is it true? Is it true? You, you. 너무 아름다워 두려워. Untrue, Untrue, You, you, you."

"곁에 머물러줄래? 내게 약속해줄래?" He nearly had a heart attack when he heard the voice that sung along.

He looked at where it came from. His tears where there once again as he looked at him.

"손 대면 날아갈까? 부서질까? 겁나, 겁나, 겁나." The voice came closer to him, them he felt it.

The warmth he have been longing for.

"시간을 멈출래. 이 손간이 지나면. 없어던 일이 될까? 널 잃을까. 겁나, 겁나, 겁나." He sung, gripping the man's shirt as he didn't want to let go, no more.

"Butterfly~ Like a butterfly~ 마치 butterfly, bu-butterfly 처럼~" They sung at the same time.

How we wish time would stop just so he can be with him for the rest of his life.

He don't want him to disappear again from his life.

He cried on his chest.

He didn't know if this is right.

He been crying and hurting himself because he, the man, now in front of him, left him, and now he'll easily accept him again?

But Jaemin refused to keep his mind working for a moment.

He wanted this. He wanted him.

He won't let this slip and lock himself up again.

No more leaving.

But...

"Why are you here?" Jaemin asked, his voice muffled from talking while his face is still buried at his chest.

"Just wandering around... Then I heard you. Fate?" Mark joked, but he actually wished it is.

Jaemin suddenly pushed him away, now feeling a little angry.

"Fate? You... Y-you left me!" he yelled. His voice booming all around the place, bringing back an echo.

Mark felt guilty for doing so. He didn't want to! He was just confused back then!

"Does that matter anymore? I am here. I'm back. For you." he said, then tackled Jaemin in a hug again.

Jaemin kept on struggling from his tight grip. For him, his excuses sound bullshit.

"D-Don't you know how... How I can't--"

"Stop it already. Hush. I'm here. I didn't left you. You're always in my heart." he said.

Jaemin stopped moving. Has he gone deaf now?

Did he heard him right? For him?

"Wait... What do you mean?" he asked, wiping away some tears from his eyes, hands still clutching Mark's shirt.

Mark smiled down at him.

"You heard me right Nana. I came back for you." he said, no lies. He did came back for Jaemin.

When he left for so long, he realized he never really want to leave him, because believe him or not, he actually likes Jaemin even before they became friends. Same as Jaemin.

He was just confsed back then, and he can't believe it, so he left.

Why?

He thought Jaemin just wants to play around to prove something to himself. He regretted thinking Jaemin would ever do that to him.

But past is past, he's here now! For him!

"I realized how I don't want to leave you ever again, and I came here just to tell you," he kissed his forehead, and looked back at him again.

"...that I love you." Jaemin didn't know what to say.

All he can do is smile so wide now the moon got nothing on him, then hugged him, both of them losing balance, but who gives a damn about that?

What matters to the two of them is that they both feel the same, and they won't leave each other again.

How Jaemin wished the time would stop.

And if this is just a dream, he doesn't want to wake up.