심장은 메마른 소리를 내
From my heart, a barren noise
꿈인지 현실인지 알 수 없네
I don't know if it's reality or a dream
나의 해변의 카프카여
My kafka on the seaside
저기 숲으로 가진 말아줘
Don't go to those woods over there
내 마음은 아직 너 위에 부서져
My heart is still shattering on you
조각조각 까맣게 녹아 흘러
(난 그냥 이대로 증발하고 싶어)
I just wanted to vaporize like this
내 사랑은 영원인 걸
My love that is forever
It's all free for you baby
Now he knows what the other meant.
He left him.
Permanently.
Just the day after Jaemin confessed to him, he didn't see him anywhere.
Turns out, he left to another country.
Jaemin tried calling him, but he had blocked Jaemin.
All those restless nights.
Everytime Jaemin pushed himself out of bed, he felt like crying again. He always remembered how the only reason he is motivated to wake up and start a great day,
Left him.
Jaemin felt like dying. He's already dead inside.
He been always crying, even if he just stared to nothingness, his mind would flash an image of his face, then there he is again, crying.
He hadn't kept up on track so he didn't have any idea of how long was he like this.
Just one thing he knows for sure.
It had been so long, he felt like an hour passing, a year had already passed.
But just keep in mind that he was left alone a long time now.
He barely eats anything, hasn't left his bedroom, he only washes himself whenever he feels like it.
If anyone knows what his life had been, the would thought he is very, very unfortunate.
He has no one.
No one.
He decided that maybe, this time he'll show himself at the world again.
But,
Who cares anyways?
Even if he hanged himself, no one will notice, no one will care, no one will even see him, his body would just rot.
What can he do? He have been so hard to himself.
If something goes wrong, then he'll just lock himself again.
How can he be so stupid to think that the only person he had, will keep his promise to him? A nobody.
Heck! Why did he even believed that befriending him is a good idea!
Jaemin blamed himself for all of this. He thought he is blinded by his love, so much that an empty promise made is believable for him.
He waited for the night to come, then he'll walk around to awherever his feet will bring him.
Somewhere far? Somewhere that no people come? Somewhere...
Dark, and cold?
He just wants to free himself from all the painful crying and restless nights.
Maybe this would be the best time.
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Butterfly
Fanfic"I would always watch you from afar, wondering how it would be really nice to be close to someone like you, a literal angel." "It's okay. I prefer butterfly though, but thanks! You're MY angel though."
