The Divergent Series: Exponent

Afterwards: Tris POV

I survived the death serum, but I died from being shot. How is that even possible? Why would David shoot me, if he loved me mother? I'm the closest thing to her he has left. Was he really that desperate to reset the city's memory? How am I even alive right now?

I used all my strength to try and stay alive. But, I must have died, because everyone thought I was dead. I don't remember the last few days and I feel weak. Very weak. But, how am I alive? I tried to stay alive for Tobias, because he needs me. But, I didn't have enough strength in me.

I still don't get the logic around it. I'm Divergent, I can survive serums. The death serum, well that's different. I can't explain that. But, bullets can kill me. I was dead. I am dead. Or am I alive? I don't know. All I know is that I need Tobias.

My thoughts must have been heard because he's here. I can't see him, but I know when he's in the room. I want to open my eyes, but I can't. It's like they're glued shut. I want to yell "Tobias! I'm alive! Look at me!" but I know he isn't looking at me. He can't deal with anymore pain. He said I was his family now, and now that he thinks I'm gone, he has no one left. This is exactly how I felt when Peter gave me the paralytic serum. I couldn't move anything. But, that only lasted a couple of hours, not days. Did the bullet paralyze me?

I don't know how, but I manage to take a breath. It may be small, but it's something. I feel a little stronger all ready, but I don't think it's enough to get Tobias' attention. I need him to know I'm alright. Maybe not alright, but alive. I need his help. I'm in a lot of pain. David's bullet hit me in the stomach, and there was a lot of blood. God, how could I be so stupid to not bring a gun with me? Then, none of this would've happened.

I continued to breath. It's not much, as I'm the weakest I've ever been, but it's helping. But, I still can't move. I try to open my mouth, but I'm not successful. I think my lips part a little, but not enough to get his attention.

Something must of caught his eye, because I feel him beside me. It's like the first time, when I knew it him. My body turns to liquid. Not that it does anything, as I'm basically dead here on the table, but you know. I hear him say "Tris," and I just want to kiss him, but I can't. I still can't move. The best thing I can do is breathe and try to speak. I finally manage to say something.

"H-help. Stomach. Pain. Shot," I croak. I wish my voice didn't sound this terrible, but everything hurts. I'm not sure if Tobias even heard me. He just says "Tris," again. I want to look him in the eyes. I want to tell him it'll be okay, but I can't. I still can't open my eyes and my throat hurts. I can't speak again. But, I hope he gets help. I need it. I don't know if I can survive any longer. It's a miracle I'm even alive right now.

I don't know when it suddenly hits him, but he starts yelling for help. Christina and Cara run over. I continue to breath, but each time it's getting slower and slower. I'm afraid I'll die before they can save me. All those times I endangered my life, and I was never afraid of dying. Now, it's actually happening and I don;t want to die. I just wanted to help, but not lose my life. I'm too young to die.

Tobias lifts me up, slowly but gently. I still can't open my eyes, but he picks up the pace. I know he is following Cara because I heard her say "Follow me!". I don't know where they are taking me, but I assume it's to a doctor. I hope we get there soon because I don't know how much longer I can hang on. My breaths are slowly stopping and my chest is getting even. I manage to flicker my eyes open and look at Tobias. He doesn't see me right away, but I stare at him for a few seconds. He's so beautiful. He finally sees my eyes and looks down at me. I wish I could speak, but I can't. I can't, and that's what hurts the most. 

It seems as if time has stopped or he's slowing down, because the last thing I see are his eyes. I take one last breath before my eyes close again. All I see is blackness.