I Kissed a Girl

08

Time passes by quickly. Tatlong buwan ng nanliligaw si Alyssa kay Sam. Lahat din ng students alam na that Alyssa's officially allowed to court Sam.

Kiefer also caught the memo not to court Alyssa anymore since official na ngang nanliligaw ito kay Sam. He wanted to prove his feelings for Alyssa but he knows wala na ding pupuntahan pa yun. And so, he accepted being broken.

Ben and Alexa are officially together, they just got together a few days ago. They're perfectly match for each other na kahit nagkakaasaran sila makikita pa din yung love at care they have for each other.

Anji on the other hand is the only one na walang love life. She said it's much better to wait for it to come, masaya kasi sila Alexa at Sam sa mga taong dumating sa buhay nila. She hopes her heart will end up finding someone worth to love.

Well, Sam and Aly are still not official as a couple but it's pretty clear sa lahat na magiging sila na talaga. Only Sam can tell when it'll be.

Which is why she's overthinking everything again. When she asked Aly how she fell for her, the latter gave her lots of reasons. But yung tumatak sa isip niya ay yung summary nun, "it's cause you are you. ang daming off sa ugali mo but somehow you managed to make your way inside my mind and my heart without intending to do it. pumasok ka lang bigla. minahal lang kita agad. because of that, I saw the good in you."

Pero natatakot siya, natatakot siyang baka magbago yun. She still thinks that love fades over time.

She's afraid that despite knowing that love fades, gugustuhin niyang e-keep yung pagmamahal na nararamdaman ni Alyssa sa kanya. She's afraid she'll be left with nothing once mawala na yung feelings nito  for her. She's afraid na in the end, siya nalang yung magmamahal, just like what her mom is going through.

Ayaw niya naman talaga magmahal, ayaw niyang masaktan. But who would have thought that Alyssa will change everything. Pinayagan niyang pumasok sa mundo niya si Alyssa and yet, marami pa din siyang takot sa lahat ng bagay.

Yes. She's fallen for the girl. But she's afraid to confess, she's afraid to have everything now but lose it right after.

"hi Sammy." nakangiting bati sa kanya ni Alyssa, umupo ito sa tabi niya, she wanted to talk to the girl and so they met together sa isang bench. Only the two of them.

"I bought food for us, baka gutom ka eh." sabi pa nito sa kanya.

She smiled at the gesture. She's really lucky.

"Ly." she called as she watches the girl preparing their food.

"hmm?" sagot nito habang abala pa din.

"let's stop this." she finally said it.

Natigilan naman si Alyssa dahil dito. Tumingin ito sa kanya at kitang-kita sa mga mata nito ang magkahalong sakit at pagkalito.

"wait. why?" finally Alyssa managed to ask her. Umupo ito sa tabi niya at hinawakan siya sa kamay.

"did I do something wrong? okay naman tayo diba?" tanong pa nito.

"you did nothing wrong Ly...it's just..." she started.

Tinignan niya sa mga mata niya si Alyssa.

She's never open up about anything tungkol sa buhay niya, the girl does not force her to do so. Alyssa respects her space and that's one of the reasons why she's fallen for her.

"I have lots of fears Ly. I may look tough and intimidating to everyone but lahat tayo may insecurity, lahat tayo may kinatatakutan..and mine is falling in love and being left alone." she said.

Alyssa is staring at her with now an understanding and worried look.

"I let you in my life that very moment I let you na umupo sa tabi ko sa swimming pool. I let you be close to me the moment I shook hands with you and agreed to be your friend. I let you in my heart the moment I kissed you that very night. I've fallen for you the moment I recognize I'm capable of loving." dagdag niya pa.

"but my fears.. they're stronger than my love for you Ly. selfish man pakinggan pero ayukong sa huli, mawala ka. I'd rather lose you now kaysa patagalin pa. kaysa hintayin kong mawala yung love na meron ka para sakin." she said those as she cried.

Binitiwan ni Alyssa ang mga kamay niya and she felt like mas iiyak pa siya. It felt like nag slow-mo lahat, she felt Alyssa's embrace.

"naiintindihan ko. but Sam?" the girl's voice the softest she's ever heard her call.

"hindi kita pipilitin..pero gusto kong malaman mo na I'll stay and I'll wait for you." sabi nito.

"hindi kita kukulitin pero andito lang ako." dagdag nito.

"for now, I can just be your friend Sam. I'm not going anywhere else."

Those words, it surprisingly comforted her rather than break her.

You deserve to feel love without fears, the love na papanindigan kang talaga. Please really wait Ly.

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NOTE: this is like my second or probably third to last ud before matapos ang story na'to.

I apologize if you feel like this is suddenly a rush. But honestly, dapat maraming complications tu eh, but Sam's personal problem itself is a big thing.

Sorry sa mga nagbabasa nito if I failed you guys.

God bless po :)

(still support SamLy oyy)