Teen Wolf Imagines/Preferences

Only love can hurt like this pt.2

This is the second part to voidsbae story from Tumblr

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Stiles' POV

"Has anyone seen Y/N?" You say while looking at Scott, Lydia and Malia.

Malia rolls her eyes "Who cares where Y/N is".

You sigh in disbelief. You love this girl with all of your heart but sometimes it is really hard to be with her. "I gotta talk to her and something tells me that I won't be able to do this tomorrow" you say with a little pain in your voice. Something feels off and it actually scares you.

"Stiles, you need to calm down otherwise you will have a panic attack." says Lydia while looking at me with this care in her eyes. "she's probably at home already".

I nod and lick my lips. Lydia's probably right but something's bothering me and I have this weird feeling that Y/N is not at home.

"I'm gonna get some air" you say and walk out of the school building.

You look around but still no sign of Y/N. You get in your car and drive to her house as fast as you can. With a pounding heart you park at Y/N's driveway. It's completely dark in her house. You look at the time. It's 2 am. She's never sleeping at this time of the night. Something's wrong.

You go to the door and ring a bell. After 5 minutes you just push the door. It's quiet and all of her stuff are gone.

"NO, NO, NO, NO" you say while running through Y/N's house. It's completely empty. No sign of Y/N's presence.

You go to her room only to find a letter on the empty bed. You frown your eyebrows.

With shaking hands and pounding heart you grab the letter seeing "Stiles" on the front.

You open the letter and take a deep breath. You start reading.

Dear Stiles,

I don't know where I should start because there are so many things that I'd like to tell you.

First of all I'm sorry for not telling anyone of you that I was going to leave. I really wanted to but the pain was too heavy.

Remember that one time when we've been driving late at night looking for Liam? Well, you told me that night that Malia is the one and I know you haven't noticed that but my heart broke that day. Not because I was not happy for you but because I've been loving you since 3rd grade and somehow you;ve never noticed. Everybody knew. Including your girlfriend. She knows too. I remember going one night to your house to tell you how I feel about you but she was there. I've seen her in your room. You both were standing close to the window. You've been showing her the moon and a few moments later you were kissing. I remember thinking to myself that It should be me. I was so naive. All these presents and our long conversations about life. I once even thought that maybe we could be together. Maybe you will eventually find that romantic feeling but now I see how stupid I was.

I love you Stiles and I always will. You've been, you are my first love.

I hope that she is everything that you've ever wanted. I hope that she will make you happy like no one ever could. I hope she is truly the one.

Please don't try to contact me. I won't answer your calls or texts. I need to be alone for some time. I want you to know that leaving you was the hardest decision I've ever made. I'm not gonna regret meeting you or falling in love with you because you Stiles Stilinski showed me what true love really is and that sometimes a true love can be painful and even destroying.

Take care of yourself and everyone and please don't try to find me.

Forever yours,
Y/n

You place the letter on the bed and wipe the tears that are falling.

You can't really tell what emotions you are currently feeling. Pain? Light-headedness? Sadness?

It feels like you are drowning in memories. Your heart sinks to your stomach as you feel more tears coming. How could you miss it? Y/N was always like a sister to you but somehow deep down you knew. How could you be so stupid Stiles?

You take your phone and text Lydia.

to: Lyds

She's gone.

I close my eyes and lay on her bed. 10 minutes later Scott and Lydia appear upstairs. Lydia is crying while Scott hugs her.

"She's gone guys. Y/N left me a letter explaining that she has always loved me but couldn't stand the idea of me and Malia so she ran away. She asks us to not to look for her" I say with shaky voice "How could I be so stupid? Did you guys know about her feelings? Is that true?"

Lydia and Scott nod. They look at me with sorrow in their eyes.

"We knew ever since" says Lydia and sighs "We were just hoping that maybe Malia is temporary and that eventually you will realize that Y/N loves you"

I bite my lips "I can't believe she is really gone. I lost her because I was fooling myself. I'm not happy with Malia and knowing that Y/N loved me through everything and that I couldn't cherish that...it's devastating."

Scott and Lydia hug me as tight as they can and the three of us just sob unconditionally.

I never knew that losing somebody who was always there for me could be that hard. I couldn't love her properly, just like she deserved to be loved and for that I will never forgive myself. For being blind and letting her go. That night when I asked Malia to be my girlfriend I lost Y/N irretrievably and now we all pay the price for my mistake that I will never have a chance to fix.

Only love can hurt like this.

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Word Count: 1036

This was the last part, that was sad it made me sad while reading hahaha, anyways enjoy, bye