I'm drowning in the bottom of a bottle
Thoughts coming in a bundle.
Coming at a fast pace
Tears keep falling down my face.
It keeps resonating in my head
Everything I said
Unfortunately became nothing but lies
But it was too late for me to open my eyes.
This entire time I was blind
Only to have some peace of mind
Without realizing what pain you had to endure.
Thing is I had the cure
Yet, I didn't think of using it.
Now, I'm in this pit
Thinking about all the ways I could have stopped it
Thinking how much, for this task, I could have been less unfit.
It all led to your departure.
Now, everywhere I go
Everything I see
Every song I listen to
Behind every picture
I'm seeing every memory
Everything we've been through
Everything we've shared
I recall every gesture.
This huge shadow
It's so painful to watch
It's torture
And I'm scared
Against it, I am no match.
This is not what I wanted.
It keeps resonating in my head
Everything you said
What you needed.
I know we're not the same
And I know I'm the one to blame.
I know I made you suffer
I know your pain is far greater
I know I could have worked harder
And I know I could have been better.
Our relationship reduced to nothing
It's always been my greatest fear
I know my words don't mean anything
Even though they're sincere.
I'd like to know where it all began to break
I'd like to know when your heart started to ache.
It keeps resonating in my head
Everything we said
It feels like bullets going right through me
I became a man I swore I'd never be.
You're the only eyes that knew me
I wish those eyes could again see
Those eyes I made cry.
Everytime I look at the sky
I pray
I pray that, together, we could again stay
I want us to be back
And get out of the black
This black I got myself into
Knowing that I hurt you.
If there's something I could do
Anything
Everything
