I may have won the game
But life with her has become lame
I always have to take the blame
Always being called names
And while our emotions are bursting into flames
There's always that beast I cannot tame
There's always that place inside deprived of silence
There's always that inner violence
Something she never saw
Those moments where I clench my jaw
My head spinning like a saw
My true colors being raw
There's always that inner war
Always feeling like a caged wild animal
Always told myself "that's just who you are"
Everything I do is emotional
It can be sexual
It can be brutal
Or even illegal
I'd say it's mostly chemical
Right now she's irritating me
Not letting me be
Her words stinging like a bee
Having too much honesty
Now I hate her to some degree
Right now I think she's very gutsy
She shouldn't talk to me that way
She should think about what she's gonna say
Will I be able to take one last hit?
What I got was a spit spray
That's it
She's become my prey
I'm letting it out
Not caring what this is about
I'm only here to start a bout
I obviously started by hitting her face
I did it with enough speed
All I wanted is to see her bleed
Now shall I take it to some other place
Ripping off what she's wearing
Hearing her screaming
Nothing more amusing
Such an exquisite feeling
I'm getting on top
She wants me to stop
She's begging
I'm not listening
She has to pay
She deserves everything that's happening
I'm done playing
She was able to push me away
She started running
I appreciate her trying
I grabbed her head
Hit it against the bed
Then on the ground
The room has become my playground
Her genitals are exposed
Her body is bruised
Time to be pleased
Time for her to be used
She's crying
I'm pounding
I'm touching
I'm smiling
I'm laughing
I'm playing
I'm enjoying
I'm winning
All I could see on her face was fear
Maybe was she thinking her end was near?
The more time passed
The more I focussed
I was thinking of ending the fun
I was thinking about her being done
So how about I end her life?
Maybe with a knife?
Or do I smash her head even harder?
No. I'm not a monster...
Maybe with my bare hands?
Is that how it ends?
I have to get that out of my head
Unless?
