I would like to address this to my family
The reason I came to be
The ones that made me happy
The ones that saw me as me
Here it goes...
We all know in what kind of world we live in
Always got to lift up our chin
Even though the ice we walk on is so thin
That's how it's always been
Haters
Pointing fingers
Strangers
Lacking manners
Whispers
Comes in numbers
There's always something to say
And some people start to stray
Some people can't see it clearly
They don't know why they should be sorry
They care for nobody
Even tho I spent my life helping everybody
I couldn't get the same treatment
I couldn't get what I needed
Finding myself in constant lament
Sometimes self-hatred
Burdened by such heavy weight
Feelings buried
Deteriorating state
Wounds that always bleed
Wounds that stacked
A heart still in need
So much yet to be unpacked
So much they haven't asked about
So much I need to shout
I've been too patient
Too resilient
Too lenient
It would appear that my strength was insufficient
And so I just want to say sorry
Sorry that I've decided to set myself free
Free from my chain
Free from the pain
Lifting all that weight off my shoulders
And beginning to collect flowers
To start getting the compassion I never had
Finally not to be sad
I want to say thank you
Thank you for being such good parents
I tried
I really tried
I just had strong opponents
That's why I wrote this letter
The fight is now over
Thereby
This is goodbye
I love you
Your son
*I would like to mention that is only a creative text and not an actual suicide note. If you're feeling suicidal or someone you know is, please seek for help*
