Missing Piece

FIRST MISSION - DRABBLE

True to his word, Tony has kept you at the tower while he and Bruce figured out what was going on with you and your voodoo doll-like power. At the same time Bucky has been confined to the tower as well while they figured out how to make sure the triggers can't be used to reactivate the soldat again. It allows the two of you to spend a lot of time together to heal both physically and mentally. You can mend your friendship and make sure that your new relationship starts in the best possible way.

You love each other, there's no denying it, you just need to learn to open up completely. Something you both struggle with because of your pasts.

You get to work on it together, heal together and eventually train together. At first Tony and Bruce were absolutely against the idea of you training, even with Bucky, but they understood that you needed an outlet to let all of your emotions out and they'd rather it happened in the gym than in the outside world. You feel so lucky to be able to spend time with your best friend, now boyfriend. You definitely could use the spare time to get the hang of things before going back to "real" life.

Unfortunately for you real life comes quicker than expected and Bucky heals faster than you, meaning he gets cleared for missions while you have to stay put. It makes you mad, not because he has managed to heal completely but because it cuts your quality time with him. You've enjoyed being able to be just you and him, almost like a normal couple. No Avengers, no special abilities, no scarring past: just you and your best friend. You can tell that he's disappointed to have to leave you behind when he announces that he's going on his first solo mission.

During the long process of healing, you've talked more than once about a perfect world where you'd be able to go on your first mission together and now he's going alone. He won't even have backup and that stresses you out. Bucky is more than capable of taking care of himself but you'd feel a lot better knowing there was someone there to watch his back.

Just like when you went on your last mission, you and Bucky sleep in the same bed although he has to get up in the middle of the night to leave.

As soon as his alarm goes off, he turns it off to let you sleep but the moment he stirs and moves his arm away from his spot around your waist you blindly reach out behind you to bring his arm back around you, making him chuckle.

''I'm sorry baby, I gotta go.'' He whispers before he kisses the back of your head and the top of your shoulder.

''No.'' You turn around in his arms and pout.

''It's only two days, it'll go by quickly I promise.'' He softly brushes the hair back from your face and presses a kiss to your forehead. ''Go back to sleep. I'll see you soon.''

You shake your head no. ''I'll walk with you.'' You rub your eyes and sit up in bed.

Bucky quickly gets out of bed while he has the chance and kisses the top of your head before going to his bathroom to get changed. To think not so long ago he couldn't even stand the thought of someone touching him and now he can't stop touching, hugging or kissing you.

He half expects to find you sound asleep by the time he gets out of the bathroom but to his surprise you're sitting at the foot of his bed with a sweatshirt on to cover the tank top you sleep in, your usual sweats and your unlaced combat boots on. He wouldn't say that you are awake per say but you're not asleep either. Bucky grabs his duffle bag in one hand and opens his bedroom door with the other, guiding you outside. As soon as the door is closed, you take his free hand and squeeze it gently. You both walk in silence as you go through the halls, get in the elevator and finally make it to the front door where a car is waiting for Bucky right outside.

''Alright baby, give me a hug.'' He puts down his duffle bag and opens his arms for you to snuggle into his chest for the last time until he comes back. Once you're wrapped around his chest, he puts his arms around you and hugs you tightly while peppering kisses on the top of your head. ''I'm going to miss you.'' He whispers in your hair.

''Me too.'' You sigh sadly and hug him tighter.

If it was up to you or Bucky, you'd stay like this forever but sadly work awaits and he has no choice but to go.

He cups your cheeks carefully, making you look up into his eyes. ''Can I get a kiss?'' He waits for you to nod before pressing his lips to yours for one of the softest kisses he has given you.

The next two days are hell for you. You can't call or text Bucky, yet it doesn't stop you from sitting on your bed and staring at your phone waiting for any sign of life. It's not that you can't live without Bucky around, you can, but the last time you were apart for a mission everything turned to hell and you're scared it might happen again. You don't want Bucky to get hurt in any way.

The moment F.R.I.D.A.Y. lets you know that Bucky just passed the gates, you jump out of bed and run downstairs. You don't want to take the elevator because it'll only slow you down. You make it downstairs and outside just as the SUV pulls up in front of the door, Bucky barely waits for the car to be completely stopped before getting out. He's still in full gear, he didn't want to waste any precious second to change before leaving. He barely has time to drop his bag to the ground before catching you as you throw yourself in his arms, wrapping your arms around his neck and your legs around his waist.

He laughs and wraps his arms around you to bring you closer to his chest and hug you. ''Hi baby.'' He whispers in the crook of your neck, breathing you in.

''Are you ok?'' You lean back in his arms to take a good look at him, one of your hands leaving the back of his neck to cup his cheek and stroke it with your thumb.

''I am now.'' He grins and kisses you before you have time to say anything else.

The last two days have been hell for him too. He has come to the conclusion that he is still touch starved like he used to be before meeting you and that he'll never not be touch starved when it comes to you. Whenever he's apart from you, Bucky really does feel like he has a missing piece but as long as he's with you he'll always be whole.