The Other Side Of Me

Tumblr Poem #4: Idea of Being In Love

April 5, 2015

Dedicated to B. Thank you for playing for us.

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I RUBBED MY PALMS TOGETHER AND RESTED IT AFTER, THE WAITER SMILED AT BOTH OF US WHILE HE HANDED ME MY GINGERBREAD LATTE WHILE AN ESPRESSO FOR HIM-ALWAYS THE STRONG ONE-I LOOKED AT THE WET STREETS OF BGC AS PEOPLE RUN, LAUGH, PLAY OR FEEL ALONE UNDER THE WEATHER THAT HAS NEVER BEEN EXPERIENCED FOR A LONG TIME.

HE SMILED AT THE SIGHT OF MY FACE, "YOU PLAYED BEAUTIFULLY." AND I LAUGHED UNCONTROLLABLY, WHY WOULD HE SAY SUCH WORDS AS IF I PLAYED THE VIOLIN OR PIANO OR AT LEAST SOMETHING DIVINE, I PLAYED THE DRUMS.

I TOOK A SIP OF MY LATTE AS HE STARTED TAKING HIS GUITAR OUT OF ITS BAG. I TRIED TO UNLOCK MY GAZE FROM HIM BUT IT SEEMS LIKE HE PUT ME ON A SPELL WHERE I CAN'T DO ANYTHING STRAIGHT. HE TOUCHED HIS GENTLE THUMB THROUGH THE STRINGS, FROM THE SIXTH TO THE FIRST MAKING A GOOD TONE. HE STARTED TO SING A SONG THAT REFLECTED SO MUCH OF US, I CAN'T DARE TO THINK WHY HE ALWAYS ADORE MY VOICE WHEN HIS VOICE IS THE ONE THAT MELTS MY HEART LIKE IT WAS THE VERY FIRST TIME I HEARD HIS VOICE, IT'S DEVASTATING TO BE SO IN LOVE WITH A VOICE BEFORE I COULD EVER COLLIDE IT WITH HOW I LOVE HIM AS HIMSELF. I WOULD'VE EXPLODED BY NOW BUT FORTUNATELY, I DIDN'T.

I TRIED TO HIDE THIS AFFECTION FOR HIM BUT IT ONLY GREW BIGGER AND BIGGER AND I CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL A HINT OF GUILT EVERY TIME I LOOKED AT HIM, SO I TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO HIM HOW I FELT ABOUT IT AND HE SAID HE FELT THE SAME WAY.

I KNOW IT'S A LOT DIFFERENT, I KNOW HE DOESN'T FEEL THE SAME WAY BECAUSE HIS KIND OF LOVE IS SOMETHING YOU CAN TOUCH. BUT MINE IS SOMETHING BEYOND REACH, SOMETHING BEYOND THE BOUNDARY OF POSSIBILITIES.

PEOPLE STARTED TO SING ALONG FROM THE SONG SINCE IT'S A COUNTRY FAVORITE ASIDE FROM "THINKING OUT LOUD" BY ED SHEERAN. IT'S "I WON'T GIVE UP" BY JASON MRAZ.

I REMEMBER WHEN I TOLD HIM I COULDN'T HANDLE BEING SO IN LOVE YET THAT I PREFER FRIENDSHIP.

HE SANG THE SONG WITH PEOPLE SINGING ALONG BUT NEVER ONCE, NEVER A MILLISECOND DID HE DARE TO UNLOCK HIS GAZE ON ME. AS SOON AS HE FINISHED THE SONG HE GENTLY CARESSED MY LEFT HAND THAT IS RESTING INNOCENTLY AT THE TABLE,

"PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU'RE READY TO JUMP, DON'T WORRY I'LL CATCH YOU."

AND IN THAT MOMENT OF MY LIFE I WANTED TO TAKE RISKS AND GIVE EVERYTHING AT ONCE BUT NO WORDS WERE SPOKEN BUT A SMILE SPREAD ACROSS MY FACE. "I WILL NEVER LET YOU DOWN,"

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A/N: Sorry for the All-caps. I'm too lazy to edit them, let's just pretend it's intended.

Lovelots x