Unexpectedly inlove [GL'S SERIES #1]

Chapter 43

It's been FIVE YEARS..

the last time i was here when i visit philippines last year.. its her birthday then. i still remember how i cried infront of her cousins telling me that it was a joke the moment they told me that they already found the body and they confirmed that she's already gone six months after she's missing

They said it's a hit and run and found the body across the lake, they didn't told me the whole detail or they did but i didn't listen

Gone.. she's gone

I am here in cemetery sitting infront of her tombstone, it's too sad when i got here for the first time five years ago to confirmed it but she's already buried. hindi pinatagal ng pamilya niya dahil ayaw daw nilang kumalat ito and aiz also wants that for sure as what they told me, i never got the chance to see her, i never got the chance to tell her how sorry i am

For the last time, hindi ako nabigyan ng pagkakataon to tell her i really do love her. five years had passed and it was hell to me, everynight everyday i almost lost hope to be alive, i am living with guilt and longing to her presence

I wish that night didn't happened, i wish i didn't hurt her and tell her those awful words. Edi sana she's still here beside me.. she's fighting with me and living a good life beside me

But it's too late.. and it's all my fault

I can't accept the fact na wala na siya, but her recording from her phone gave me hope, that thing gave me a chance to continue my life.. her voice echoed in me when i remembered how i listen to those recording of hers the moment i almost lost my hope to breathe

FLASHBACK~

I stomped on the floor the moment i reach my room, i drunkely brushed my hair. it's been a month  ng malaman kong wala na talaga siya and i decided to just stay here in ph even tho my dad keep pushing me to go back in london and fix my life

He keep saying that it's not my fault and it's accident well he doesn't understand anyway, he wasn't there. No one's here, nobody understand me and they keep telling me what i should and shouldn't do

I'm so sick of it

I'm so terrible, she died because of me because of that night! I'm so stupid i should've just explained whats happening.. fuck it everyday it's been my routine to go to the bar where no one recognized me and drowning myself from the alcohol that keep me sane.. but damn her face her cheeky smile and those soft reaction she'll always giving me keeps showing kahit na san ako tumingin

I miss her.. i miss my angel

I reach my bag, someone's calling me again pero ibang telepono ang nakapa ko.. my tears fell ng makita kung cellphone niya yon

Dala ko ito kahit saan, but this is the first time na sisilipin ko ito, the moment I unlocked it my stolen picture showed as her wallpaper. I smiled

I look upon her gallery and puro yon litrato ko o kung hindi naman stolen picture ko meron pang natutulog at meron ding picture namin magkasama, she's doesnt like to be captured and she also don't take selfie's often pero when she's with me she wants to captured every moment we had

When i am about to close all the opened app ay namataan ko ang recording, she obviously often used it dahil hindi pa ito nasasara, until i notice that she have one voice record na nakasave dito. I bite my lips ng makita ko ang nakapangalan, i slowly play it but as i heard her voice i can't help to cry silenly while listening to her sweet message she made when we were in batanes