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i've just woken up to a billion texts from jacob asking me what's wrong and if i'm ok. lately i've been really distant with him as i'm just trying to figure out what i want. i guess when i phone him i may have an idea.
my hand hovered over his name for a second before i clicked to facetime him. soon enough he answered.
"good morning miss rice" he smiled at me.
"morning. are you not tired it's like what time over there?"i asked him.
"no don't worry bout me i want to know what's going on. i feel like i haven't heard your voice in forever"jacob told me with a slight sad expression.
"yeah i'm sorry. to be honest the reason i have been like it is because i need to tell you the truth about something" he nodded for me to carry on "the other day as you know it was livs birthday. i went out for a walk mason came with me as we wanted to give liv and dec some alone time-"i started before getting interrupted.
"did something happen between you and mason"he guessed.
i nodded my head before telling him "truth is mason has told me his still in love with me. he was complimenting me and i guess my mind slipped back how things were between us. mase was walking away but i stopped him and kissed him. this was all my fault i'm so sorry"
"are you still in love with him?"he looked down for a brief second before looking back up to me in the camera.
"i don't know. we had a talk at coffee yesterday and i told him i did want to try and make things work with you"i smiled slightly.
"as much as i would love to be like yeah let's continue you chose me. i can't do that. you might not see it but your in love with him aswell georgia"he told me catching me off guard.
"w-what do you mean?" i looked to the screen confused.
"mason just has to walk into the room and your face brightens up. i saw the way you was with him when i came back with you. it's him that you want. look i listened to you cry over the boy endless amounts. the feelings you told me you had for him, they don't go away. being honest i know i could never make you feel the way he does as much as i wish i could" jacob explained to me.
"so what about us? what happens now?"i questioned.
"me and you will be such good friends. every time you visit america we will have fun like we did before we ever got together. but for you, you need to tell mase the truth. the boy is probably broken as hell thinking you don't feel the same. but you are in love with him aren't you?" jacob said even though he knew the answer.
"i guess i just thought it was to good to be true. life was perfect with him when i left it crashed down why would he ever deserve me again?" i answered his question in a way but i didn't want him to be the first person i tell that i'm still in love with mase. it needs to be mason.
"don't doubt yourself. but gi call me anytime i'm going to go sleep now. loves ya"he waved goodbye.
"loves ya"i waved back before ending the call.
immediately after this call i got ready,brushed my teeth and called a taxi to go to masons. i know he hasn't got anything planned today so maybe this will be right.
once i got there i went over and knocked on his door. i waited there a couple moments before i saw his face in the door. he had just his shorts on and his hair was kind of messy.
"georgia what are you doing"he seemed confused as he turned back to look away from the door.
"you've been honest with me now it's my time to be honest with you"i paused as he just nodded his head.
we looked at eachother for a minute until i built the courage and kissed him. at first he kissed me back until after about 30 seconds he pulled away.
"don't do that" he firmly told me i could see he was a little annoyed.
"why"i asked him.
"because the last time you did that you went and chose him. i can't keep dealing with that heartbreak"mason answered.
"mase i don't know another way to tell you this but i chose you. i chose you now. i chose you tomorrow. i chose you always" i smiled at him until i didn't see a smile back on his face. all of a sudden i heard something drop from in his house. then i saw the girl i haven't seen in a while. Chloe...
"oh my georgia i haven't seen you in ages"she smiled at me.
"yeah neither"i awkwardly laughed putting on a fake smile "i didn't realise you and mase are dating again?" i kept my eyes concentrated on mase for a second as he avoided my eye contact. then my eyes shot back over to chloe.
"i guess the feelings just never went away but i'm so happy"she wrapped her arms around mase. this isn't right. it was meant to be me and mason together. i hate myself for realising so late.
"erm i've got to go training later so i can't really talk"he quickly blurted out scratching the back of his neck. that was a lie. i know his timetable enough to know he doesn't have training again for a while.
"oh ok" my heart broke. "i'll talk to you later i guess"
"yeah maybe"he replied before shutting the door in my face. what was that. i truly didn't expect it.
instead of calling another taxi i decided to walk. even though it started to rain i didn't want to let that bother me.
what was happening. i admitted my feelings to him but he moved on. was this how he felt when i did this to him. i guess i do deserve it. but why does timing always have to be such a bitch.
————————————— btw these are all pre written as i'm having a break but thank you for the love💓
