it's the day after i kissed mason. my mind is still frazzled to why i did it. as soon as i got back to decs yesterday i hid in my bedroom until mase decided to go home.
i feel terrible. i have a boyfriend who cares for me and i decide to break his trust and kiss my ex. jacob still doesn't know about the kiss which makes me feel worse. i do plan on telling jacob as soon as i get back to la.
to be productive i decided to not go on my phone this morning and go downstairs. liv and dec sat and stared at me.
"what's that look for?"i asked confused.
"what did you do?"liv questioned me as i sat on the sofa.
"i don't understand"i looked at the both of them.
"why the hell did you run to your room and mason constantly ask for you last night when you came back"dec said with a straight face.
"i made a mistake"i told them rubbing my hands on my head as i looked at them waiting for me to continue "i kind of kissed him"i admitted.
dec shook his head at me whilst liv just sipped her tea not really knowing what to say.
"i'm guessing you regretted it by the way you came back"he said guessing how it went "why'd you do it when you know the man is head over heels in love with you"he continued.
"just for a second it went back to how it used to be and i don't know. there's no excuse i know"i looked down not wanting to face it anymore.
all dec did was sigh not knowing what to do now. "gi i love you and everything but i'm going to phone mase"he told me planting a kiss on livs head before going upstairs.
as soon as dec left i bursted out crying i couldn't hold it in. liv came over and hugged me trying to calm me down slightly.
"i messed up big didn't i"i said looking at liv. "what do i do" i asked wiping the tears then pulling my hood over my head. my brain kept trying to think of things i could do but i thought it was best to ask liv as she knows me the best out of everyone.
"i'm your bestfriend so i'm going to tell you the truth. this can't happen again. it's not fair to either mase or jacob. you clearly still feel something for mase otherwise you wouldn't have done it. but if your wanting to continue a life with jacob you need to put mason in the past. otherwise you will lose the both of them georg"liv explained.
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username hope your ok :(
declanrice i've got you brother!❤️ masonmount love you man❤️
username this girl be stupid for letting you go
username is this aimed at georgia?
oliviamoore you've always got me dec and noelly!💙 masonmount thanks liv!💙
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masons pov how many times does she have to break my heart for her to realise it should be us that's endgame.when she kissed me yesterday i felt so happy. i thought maybe she does want me. but for her to just run away like she keeps doing breaks me.
all i want is to go back to how we was last summer. i'm so inlove with her what doesn't she understand about that. no one even comes close to her so how could i ever find anyone else.
i came out of my thoughts to realise dec was facetiming me.
"hey.."i slightly smiled at him.
"how you feeling"he asked me.
"depressed right now wouldn't even even come close to how i feel. am i doing something wrong. why can't it be me?" i questioned trying to fight back me tears which was no use as they fell.
"she's my sister so i'll always be there for her. but i can't even agree with how she's making you feel. bro you don't deserve it, i know somewhere in there she still loves you i think she's just confused"dec told me.
"how is she this morning"truth be told as mad as i was that i keep getting left by her it could never stop me from caring about her.
"me and liv was just speaking to her before i called you. she told us that everything went back to how it used to be for a second causing her to kiss you. she knows she messed up i just think you need to talk to eachother"he suggested to me.i agreed with him.
"your right. i mean i would do anything just to go back to how things were before they went down hill. my whole body aches for her dec. closing my eyes at night i see her face, she's the one who pops into my mind all day, she's one i see waking down the aisle to me, she's the one i see carrying my kids. the girl means the world to me. that kiss with her felt so right and i know she felt that to, she wouldn't run away if she didn't" i ranted, tears flooding my vision.
"mate i know you love her. your face brightens up at even the mention of her name. i couldn't of thought of anyone better suited for her. when you broke up last year i was shocked i didn't realise she was going to do that. but bro as hard as it is try your best to focus on yourself as much as you can. talk to her though she might open up to you. if she doesn't want to, let her do her i know for a fact she will come back to you" dec told me.
we spoke about other things for about half an hour before hanging up.
my body can't handle this any longer i need answers so i decided to message georgia.
georgia❣️ mase💸
mase💸 can i talk to you?
georgia❣️ erm yeah sure
mase💸 not on here can we meet up?
georgia❣️ i'll meet you at the coffee shop in half an hour?
