We Said Forever!

Chapter 2. Nick Nelson

My first day wasn't too eventful. The only interesting thing that happened was meeting Nick, who I couldn't stop thinking about.

I wasn't really looking forward to my second day of school. To be quite honest, I am not the biggest fan of school in general.

Currently, the only good things that were going for me were my friends and my newfound crush. I'm not quite sure if Ben was included in that at that point. Ben wasn't even out yet and I didn't even know if he knew we were boyfriends.

Tao was right in the fact that I was not sure what Nick's sexuality was. Eventually, I would find out, but in the meantime, I was going to have to just wait and see where it went. Straight out asking him would be embarrassing and he would definitely know I had a crush on him then.

Most of my school knew I was out, but I wasn't sure if Nick knew.

I finally arrived at school and was dreading the schoolwork I would eventually have to do.

I saw a text from Ben asking me to meet him in the corridor right before Form. I went to go see him and he smiled when he saw me. As always, he pulled me into a long, deep kiss. I felt his body press against mine and he wrapped his arms around me. We hardly exchanged any words before the late bell had rung and we needed to part ways.

Again he put his lips against my ear and whispered "Don't tell anyone about this."

I sat there for a minute consumed in my thoughts. I wished more than ever we could be out and Ben would be proud to be my boyfriend. Ben's refusal to do so deepened my disappointment and I soon realized that my dreams would never happen. I would forever be his little secret.

I didn't want that at all. I would rather be single and lonely than allow myself to be treated in such away.

As my thoughts filled my head, different scenarios flying through, I took off running to my next class.

As a walked into Form, I saw Nick smiling at me. It warmed my heart as he said "Hi!"

"Hi!" was kind of our thing at that point. We were too awkward to think of another way to greet one another, and "Hi!" just came so naturally.

I felt safer around Nick than I did around Ben. He was very comforting and had a way of just making me feel whole.

Of course, he did not know of this and I was probably never going to tell him because he would think it was odd and that I was too attached.

We continued our endless conversations in Form and we ended up getting onto the topic of his absolutely adorable dog Nellie. She was the sweetest thing I had ever seen. My parents never wanted to get pets because of how much work they were and I told Nick about how that disappointed me.

"Well, then why don't you come over to my house on Saturday to see her!" Nick suggested, his huge smile making me feel all warm inside.

I excitedly agreed and after around an hour, the Break bell rang.

I looked down at my phone as the bell rang and saw a message from Ben asking if I wanted to meet up with him again. I reluctantly went to see him in the library and another heated makeout session ensued.

I was getting sick of the fact that our whole relationship was just based on making out, but before I could voice this the lunch bell rang and we went our separate ways.

I attempted to wash my disappointment away as I walked to lunch with the fact that I sort of had a little date with Nick on Saturday even though he most likely didn't consider it one.

I walked out to the courtyard and saw my supposed "boyfriend" making out with some random girl.

I felt my heart break inside my chest and quickly ran away to go look for Issac and Tao.

Once I found them they asked me where I was. I explained to them I was in the library only to get a snarky response from Tao.

"Did you have a little makeout session with Nick Nelson!" Tao teased, a big smirk on his face.

I couldn't help but blush and lightly punch Tao's arm.

"No! I was not having a makeout session with Nick Nelson or anyone else for that matter!"

Tao sighed.

"Charlie, you are only going to hurt your own damn feelings if you keep falling for Nick. He's literally the straightest guy in this school!"

I looked down feeling slightly ashamed. I knew Tao was probably right but I couldn't shake the little shred of hope I had.
"I know Tao, you're right. I just can't help but feel that he's different. He even invited me over this weekend to see his dog!"

Isaac quickly picked his head up and smirked.

"Sureeee Charlie. You sure that's what's going to happen?"

I knew they were only joking but that time, it felt different somehow.

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After school, I decided to message Ben and tell him I didn't want to meet up with him anymore. He quickly messaged me back asking me "why" and "what did he do to deserve this". He suggested we meet up in the corridor and I agreed, wanting him to just leave me be.

I didn't know at the time that Nick saw me leave and decided to follow me.

I saw Ben and he quickly started questioning me about why I didn't want to meet up with him anymore.

I finally broke and began yelling

"Because I'm tired of being your little secret! You're figuring your sexuality out and that's fine but it shouldn't be made into my problem!"

Ben looked a bit shocked but I just continued.

"And when were you going to tell me about your girlfriend! Were you just going to lead both of us on forever?!"

Ben looked pissed.

"I only dated you because I pitied you. Who would really be that desperate to go out with a freak like you?"

I was in shock at his harsh words but he kept going.

"I never liked you, Charlie! It's honestly pathetic that you thought I ever would."

I could feel the tears start to well up in my eyes. I was just his little secret that he would go to when he wanted a makeout session. Nothing more.

Out of nowhere, Ben shoved me against a wall and forced his lip onto mine. I struggled in his grip and started begging for him to stop but he didn't. I could feel the tears running down my face as he started kissing down my neck.

I felt helpless but suddenly Nick came in and shoved Ben off of me.

"He told you to stop! Can you not take no for an answer?!"

He looked as if he was bursting at the seams with anger.

"Piss off!" He shouted.

Ben quickly scurried away and I slowly turned towards nick, feeling extremely embarrassed.

"Did you hear all that?" I softly whispered, not even looking him in the eyes.

"I did yeah." Nick awkwardly replied. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine." Nick looked hesitant to believe me but didn't push any further.

We slowly walked our way out of the corridors together and Nick asked if I would still be up for us meeting up on Saturday that weekend.

"Of course. I'll see you soon."

We both walked in opposite directions and I was left to my thoughts, processing everything that had just happened.

I decided to take the bus, not wanting to spend my energy on walking, already far too exhausted from the eventful day I had.

I pulled up Nicks's account on Instagram and attempted to find the right way to thank him. After typing and deleting many different possibilities, I finally decided on one.

"Thank you x"