𝓞𝓱 𝓑𝓻𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻

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Men do cry too and it's okay to cry in no way or form does expressing your emotions make you weak. This is also for everyone to know that speaking about your emotions and being vulnerable will never make you weak. You are definitely allowed to feel and anyone who belittles you, disrespects you or invalidates you DOES NOT DESERVE YOU!!!!!

Thank you :)

Vincents pov

It's been 3 days since we found out that Josephine dead and no one has had the courage to go to the hospital.We're all ashamed of ourselves that we couldn't be better brothers to her or even just try to help her.We didn't get the time to show her how sorry we are and how much she really means to us and it's killings all of us.

Aiden left and he hasn't come back we don't even know where he is or if he's okay.The family was already broken it had been for a while but now it's just dead

The only person who doesn't seem to have a problem with anything happening around us is August.

He seemed not to even care that our sister was dead and that he lost his own twin brother because of his own behavioral ways towards his sister. August partied, slept with girls and moved on with his life like nothing ever happened to his family I started to question if he even cared about the rest of us.

Elliott was another odd case that I couldn't figure out he treated Josie like shit yet he somewhat cared about her.Since he heard about her he's locked himself in his room and he doesn't go out of there unless he goes to the gym or on a mission.

My worries weren't settled because Wyatt took the first step in moving out, he told us that he needed space and that he'd be in touch as much as possible.It was hard watching my best friend leave the house but I know he needed the time and space

And me well I'm failing college and my sister is dead.So I could say that I'm practically living life.I've been in my room for the past couple of days drinking my sorrows and guilt away. Being drunk feels way better than me being sober.The guilt ate me alive.

New message

My love:Vince please just call me back what ever is going on we can talk about it please I miss you just let me be there for you.

I just stared at my phone in silence I read the message but I couldn't respond to it I didn't deserve her support anyway. If she knew the awful man I've been she'd dump me that's obvious so might as well save her from myself.   I stood up from my bed walking to the bathroom I stared at the man in the mirror who barely resembled me.

All I could see was a weak boy in the body of a man. Tears filled my eyes, I let them roll down my face.I have been crying for multiple hours a day since I found out most definitely.

I just washed my face and brushed my teeth before walking back to my bed I laid there staring at the ceiling I couldn't think of anything my mind was blank and my emotions felt like there were none left.

New message

My love:I'm coming to your house we can just chill or cuddle anything just let me be by your side

Once again I ignored the message I missed Val trust me I did but I couldn't face her, I couldn't think of the disappointment that would be in her eyes once she heard about everything that I did.