i just wanna tell you

Rue

Your not a bad guy 
         You know what your doing
They are your friends they care about you
        Use them for the free weed
They going to love you for who you are
         You only want one thing and that is weed you are numb and don't feel don't have anywhere to go no real goals in life your just empty space using others just to get weed. That's all you care about. They're here cause they can supply when you out.

That's not true. You don't have to listen to that you are a good friend a good person you wake and try to put a smile on everyone face. A force of positive energy. A true friend

          You call yourself a friend.  How can you call yourself a friend when nobody you so called "care" for really knows you. You can't talk to them about how you feel.  You can't repay them for the joy they gave you cause you have nothing to give no worth or self value. Leaving yourself to wonder why do they care for you. You ain't special. You don't provide them shit but trauma dump. You are the hopeless entertainer. Entertaining everyone except yourself. Making sure everyone else is okay but you. Why is that you ask that got to be a trait of a good person right? No it's not your a complete masochist you some sick twisted obsession with this pain this exhaustion but I don't blame you it's the only thing that's been keeping you this far but I wonder how much longer it'll take you before you gone head and just die out and fade away it's not like your going to be remembered. Not for any good reason anyway cam the kid that was rape in kindergarten and grew up to sell his body for drugs and gas money yeah you did a lot for people get real with your self.  See ya next time

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Jess . I told you my brain is fucked I don't want you read this and ... sigh ima go my head hurtin ima just act like I'm fine and not a bipolar bitch 👍🏽