NOT SO SECRET, Secret Secret

Part 9

WARNING: again a warning..... might be less of a disappointing warning than last time

-Texting POV-

Binnie

I think I fucked up.

DRAMA QUEEN

That fast?

Binnie

Well he got cute again and I got nervous so I didn't speak and now I think he is mad. He even noticed and yelled at me for being distant.

DRAMA QUEEN

Shit, Changie what did I tell you! BE YOURSELF

Binnie

But myself is, weird and dirty-minded I.N!

DRAMA QUEEN

Who cares! If you don't show your true self now you will have to be fake

you the entire time you guys know each other!

Binnie

Shit FINE!

-Lee Felix's POV-

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This Bitch has the audacity to just hop on his phone like that! Am I even here? Like hello!? I swear if I have been fooled this whole time I am going to kill--- suddenly my thought was interrupted by Changbin. He had taken my hand, pushed me to a lying position on the couch, put one hand above my head, and when I tried to push him off out of surprise he took that hand and put it above my head as well. His left leg is now in between my legs and his right on the floor balancing himself. His face was close to mine, so close I could hear his every, unsteady, breath.

"This is how I am. I want skinship, but I am too scared. I want to be with you but I am too scared. I shut up and don't move when I am scared. I wanted to be here with you today. But I have been so caught up on not trying to mess up that I fucked up even worse than I could imagine. I have been trying to hold back so much Felix. I came here with the intention to just play games and have fun but I failed. I am sorry Lix. Hwang told me to be myself, but I am not sure if myself is something you want. But I don't want to be afraid. I want to be able to be myself around you. If this pose and everything I have said makes you uncomfortable I get it. Just tell me to go and I will. I will respect you and your decisions."

We sat and looked into each other's eyes for what felt like an eternity. I was so shocked at everything he had said. I mean it was all good don't get me wrong but it was so much emotion that happened so suddenly. I don't know how long we stared into each other's eyes while Changbin hovered over me but it was long enough for Changbin to have doubts. He began to pull away from me mumbling, "I am sorry, I should go." Before he could get off of me I pulled his face back to mine and kissed him. Our lips collided and felt soft but hard because I was scared of him leaving so I pulled urgently and hard. After the shock had settled down 3 seconds later, the kiss deepened. Changbins' pink lips were gentle yet egar. Every millisecond the eagerness grew, but the gentleness never disappeared.

Our lips finally parted as he moved toward my neck. Making me moan slightly. Worried he would hear, I pulled him in for our lips to intertwine again. This time the meeting was more gentle, but hotter. Changbin used his tongue. Our tongues and lips were now filled with the taste of each other. Suddenly he stopped and pulled back. 

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-FOOT NOTE- 

Was it a less disappointing warning???