𝐇𝐮𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐞 [𝐇.𝐒] vol.2

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Funny how it seems like yesterday
As I recall, you were lookin' out of place

Gathered up your things and slipped away
No time at all, I followed you into the hall

Cigarette daydream
You were only seventeen

Soft speak with a mean streak
Nearly brought me to my knees

cage the elephant -cigarette daydreams

TW// BLOOD, KNIVES, SELF HARM, TALK ABOUT ABUSE, MENTAL ILLNESS, TRAUMA, PTSD, CHILD ABUSE

"so how are you feeling?"

I sighed twirling my hair between my fingers "Are you really going to ask me that? Cause I can lie and say I'm fantastic but since I'm currently back in therapy I think that's a sign I'm not well" I mumbled a bit annoyed since my mood wasn't the best at the moment. 

I mean who would feel chirpy after figuring out that most of the people I let close to me lied to me, hide their identities and whatever else I didn't know. I was moping around for a few hours because of my sister but then I realized how pissed off that made me. 

Which only soured my mood.

"And I'm not getting paid to deal with your ass" Chris bite back throwing a pen to my head I yelped "So Charlie, how are you feeling?"

About to smother myself with a pillow

"Frustrated"

Annoyed, pissed off, wanting to scream from the top of my lungs or punch someone in the face.

"And why is that, what exactly making you feel frustrated?" I huffed as I lifted my body up from my laying position to look at her, watching her dark eyes stare at me waiting.

I bite my lip trying to find the right words but they were all a bit hostile and I knew that Chris didn't need the sharky comments that flooded my head. 

"Everything" I dugg my teeth more into my lip as I thought of how to express myself "I feel frustrated because I was finally in a good place, with someone who I fucking loved -I never thought I'd have this type of relationship" 

I was never the girl to dream about having that type of life, being domestic, having a boyfriend or think about getting married. Harry changed my mind the moment he laid his lips on mine, I never craved someone so hard before. 

I never wanted someone in my life for more than a night and the thought of not having him by my side scared the shit out of me....and now I'm alone. 

"It frustrates me because I put my everything into this relationship something that I wasn't entirely comfortable with since I never been in one" I balled my hands into fists feeling even more frustrated with my relationship, I was finally normal and things went sideways -he told me he'd never hurt me...what a lie "I fell in love with him, I gave him everything -I fucking opened up my soul just for him to rip out my heart in the end"

I felt the metalic taste in my mouth as I bite my lip hard enough so I wouldn't cry, I didn't want to cry because of him. The pain was so unbearable that if I started to let the tears flow now I would never stop.

"How was your relationship with him, I understand your feelings about what happen but I can't ignore the way your eyes change when you say his name" I let go of my lip looking at her with wide eyes before I faked a angered look. 

"Change how?"

She smiled "Like a girl in love, it's strange for me to see you like this you know" A laugh slipped her lips as she didn't even try to hide the amusment "You swore off love since you were little and look where you ended up"