Time isn't real. Summer is a doozy. I don't know how i'm going to be well dressed, work out, get good grades, keep my friends, and go to Embry (yes that's how it's spelled) Riddle to get my bachelors AND pilot license all in the span of the next 6-8 years of my life without peaking in high school and/or dying. Oh also, I'm going to be a pilot now, surprise!
Over the past year, I went from being dead set on going to law school to absolutely loathing the idea that I could go to school for eight years and never make it out without ever reaching my goal. What the fuck is up with that by the way? You fail some dumbass test a couple times and then all the hard work you put into school and stuff is just gone? Disgusting! Truly! So I got to thinking, joining the AF to fly jets and shit would be sick, but what I just laid out to you above is the safer option, and what my parents prefer, my uncle says "hell yeah!" to the air force, and my parents say "hell no!", but I'll always keep it in mind.
Oh also, sorry for not updating in like, two months. I kinda forgot this existed until yesterday, when i had my epiphany on how weirdly time passes. My brain went: "We should put that in the diary? Diary? Ohhhh the diary!" Speaking of time, I found out i can make anything move faster by saying "Soon enough, blah blah blah." And then "soon enough" is the present, and then I feel bad for not staying in the moment. Rinse and repeat, until I die. (probably).
A couple days ago, I had one of those movie moments where like, a character is doing something and you just want to scream at them. You just want to smack em in the face and yell "What are you doing? Stop it!" That was me, to myself. I don't even remember what I doing, I just know I shouldn't have. For the sake of myself, of course.
Current song of the way is Carry On Wayward Son, It's in a south park episode, good song, good message.
Current lyric of the day is from Wrecking Ball by Mother Mother , it reads, "It takes a dedicated hand to put it through the wall." I'm not exactly sure what this means, like a metaphor on anger or something?? But it sounds cool in the song
the main segment of this entry is atm is 420 words and i think it might be funny to leave it there and have a fresh start tomorrow so bye bye lol
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A Self Absorbed Telling of Life
RandomA project for my life as I go on, told through very real, very messy entries from a young teenager. Today in class, I thought, "What would I leave behind if I died today?" and "How long would it take for people to forget that I was ever there in the...
