The Jade Malfoy Book 2: Order of the Phoenix

Chapter 30

TW: Suicidal thoughts

     Narcissa goes up to Ursa's room after Ursa doesn't show up for lunch. She finds Ursa sitting on her window seat and staring out the window. "What do you want?" Ursa asks without turning around.

     "What is going on?" Narcissa asks. "Why are you doing this?"

     "Like you care." Ursa scoffs.

     "Cub I do care."

     "No. You don't. As long as I am friends with them you do not give a shit about me. Your love and care is conditional just like every other adult in this fucking family. I thought you were different. I thought you actually loved me."

     "Ursa please, I-"

     "Just leave me alone."

     "Cub I want to help you."

     "Get out of my room."

     "Ursa-"

     "OUT!" Narcissa is shocked at her tone but leaves.

     "She never loved you." The voice in Ursa's head says. "She sent you away because she hated you. She hates you. She's disgusted by you. You'd be better off somewhere else or dead." Ursa growls to herself and opens her window, since she got her handles back yesterday. She attempts to transform and does successfully before flying out the window. She enjoys the relaxing feeling of the wind in her feathers.

     That evening, Narcissa knocks on Ursa's door. "Ursa? It's almost dinner time. Are you going to come down?" There is no response. "Ursa?" Narcissa opens the door and sighs when she sees the open window. She draws her wand and waves it. Anything Ursa is hiding in her room comes out of their hiding places. "I knew she wasn't taking her hair pins with her." Narcissa says to herself when Ursa's hair pins come out from under her mattress. A bottle of butterbeer comes out from under Ursa's nightstand. Narcissa takes the butterbeer and replaces everything else. 

     When Ursa comes home hours later, she goes straight for the bottle. "Fuck!" She growls. She grabs something heavy off her nightstand and throws it at the nearest mirror.

     "Ursa's home." Narcissa says to Lucius when they hear the mirror shatter.

     "What's going on Cissa?" Lucius asks.

     "She's not doing well again. Draco found her drunk in the maze this morning." Lucius sighs sadly as Narcissa leaves the room. Narcissa goes into the kitchen and gets Ursa dinner before going upstairs. She knocks on Ursa's door before opening it. Ursa is sitting on the floor in the middle of strewn items, crying. "I have some dinner for you since you missed it." Ursa doesn't respond. "What is going on with you Ursa? I want to help you but I cannot help you if you do not talk to me." Ursa doesn't respond again. "Alright. Well I will leave this on your desk." Narcissa sets Ursa's dinner on her desk. "I love you." Ursa scoffs and Narcissa leaves.

     That night, Narcissa sneaks into Ursa's room after Ursa falls asleep. "I'm sorry Cub." Narcissa whispers as she points her wand at Ursa. "Legilimens." Narcissa's head is suddenly filled with everything Ursa has been saying to herself. The spell doesn't last long as Ursa wakes up and puts her walls up. Ursa sits up and looks at Narcissa in disbelief and betrayal.

     "Did you really just use Legimency on me while I was asleep?" Ursa asks angrily. "Are you fucking kidding me? Did it ever fucking occur to you I haven't told you anything for a reason!?"

     "Ursa please under-" Narcissa tries to explain.

     "Fuck you. Get out."

     "Please Ursa let me-" Ursa grabs her wand and hits Narcissa with a Knockback Jinx, forcing her out of the room. Ursa closes and locks her door with magic before using it to put her desk chair under the handle. She puts her wand back on her nightstand and curls into a ball before crying herself back to sleep.