We're Gonna Try Something New Today (Fransykes)

I Can't Do This On My Own

A/N: HEY GUYS!!! So yeah.. I'm sorry it took forever to update this... Honestly I could've posted this chapter like two or three months ago... but I wanted to type the next chapter before I posted this one. LOL THOUGH BECAUSE THAT DIDNT HAPPEN. I'll try to have faster updates... anyway; i love you all and on with the story!!

I walked into Josh's room. I saw Josh's mom. I walked over to his bed. I sat down in the other chair by his bed and looked at his mom. She just stared at Josh, not moving at all. I rested my head on the edge of the hospital bed and let the tears stream down my face.

Time seemed timeless. Life appeared lifeless. Love was loveless. And I felt emptiness.

Josh might not make it out of this coma. My Josh. He could die anyminute. And there would be nothing I could do to save him. I felt so helpless.

I sat there for a long time. I heard the door open and I looked up. It was a nurse. I looked over to where Josh's mom was sitting. She was gone. I hadn't even noticed that she left. She's a terrible mother. How could you just leave your child who could die any minute at the hospital? Fucking bitch. The nurse checked and made sure Josh had everything he needed, then left.

I looked at the time and saw that I spent approximately three hours staring at the ground while thinking about Josh and crying.

I realized then, looking at my beautiful, broken, beaten and battered boyfriend that I was hopelessly in love.

I took Josh's hand, sat on his bed next to him, and said, "Joshy... I need you. I need you so much. I need you to wake up. Josh, I love you." I was sobbing. "I love you so fucking much. I promised I would never leave you. Please don't leave me. I need you. Don't go. I can't do this on my own." I started to choke from lack of oxygen. "Please. Stay. Stay with me."

Josh's heart monitor started beeping rapidly. I was clueless on what to do. Doctors and nurses rushed in and ushered me out of the room.

I sat outside his room on the floor. I could still hear the rapid beeping along with shouts from the nurses and doctors. I heard the beeping change to a flat line and my heart seemed to have stopped also.