Codename: Bunny

6: I'm Sorry For Everything

      3 days later, Alan awake from his coma. He still under influence on anesthesia. He couldn't move his hand properly. His right hand, has been cemented for the healing process. He look around without any energy. He suddenly see a guy, waiting for him to wake up ended up sleeping beside him. He look at him. He never know who is that guy. Suddenly, he realised. His family was dead except for Barbara. His brown eyes start to be glassy, as his tears slowly flowing out. Not only his family members died in front of him, he also saw Barbara took a shot for him. "Why, why God why???" Said him while sobbing. He thought that he failed as a brother, as a guardian and as a son. Suddenly, that man wake up. Alan wipes his tears, immediately to act calm. "You finally wake up Alan. I am Robert Smithman, from Minnesota Police Department." Said Robert.

      "What do you want from me actually?" Asked Alan.  "Actually, I came here to ask you about 3 days ago incident that cost 4 lives and 1 in coma. I believe that you are also responsible with this man's death." He then showed Alan a man that responsible for Barbara injuries. Alan remembered, he stab that man face's too much until that man's face can't be recognized anymore. He also remember how furious and scary he is. "I... I killed him?" Asked him while he could not believe what is in his mind. Robert know that Alan can't believe it. But he can't lie to him. "You killed him, Alan. You killed him." Said Robert. Alan still can't believe it. He looked at his hand, he started to hallucinate blood from his hands. "Barbara, your little sister is still alive. She has been put into the coma. The doctor that treating her right now still didn't know when she's going to wake up." Said Robert again, while seeing Alan cry. "I'm sorry Barb, I'm sorry. I couldn't protect you. It's all my fault. I failed. I failed." Said Alan while he's sobbing. Robert pat his back, makes Alan cry even louder. "I'm sorry for your loss Alan, I really am." Said Robert. He looked at Alan, seeing him suffer for what happened, hurt his heart. 

      While Alan cried, a random man suddenly call him. "Alan! Alan where are you?" That man loud voice making everyone in the hospital look at him. Alan recognized the voice, making him wants to get up from the bed. He get out from his room so that he can meet the voice. He saw that man, then he slowly call him. "Uncle Frank, I'm here." Said him while his tears suddenly flowing out again. Franklin Becker, Alan's uncle, rush to his nephew, cried with gratefulness that one of his nephews are still alive. "Oh Alan, I'm glad that you're still alive. I'm so scared that I lost all of my nephew." Said Franklin with tears, since Ryan is the only brother he had. To be compared with Ryan, Ryan is better than him in every aspect. Franklin didn't live with all of technology that his brother had. Still, for Alan, he is the greatest uncle. "Barbara, she... She took the shot for me... She saved... She saved me." Said Alan, while slowly hug his uncle. He cried, knowing that all of this happen to his family members, but not him. He thought that God has punished him for every sins he did when he was alive. "Why them? What did they do until they got killed? They are good guys uncle, even Barbara is a good person." Said Alan again. He keep on crying, knowing that it's not fair for good person like them died while sinful person like him alive.

      After a while, Alan got discharged from hospital after getting through some medical checkup. His face just same as dead guy, no reaction at all. Frank then see Alan, sad because his only nephew that always happy all the time, suddenly saw something that never should happen. He try to talk, but Alan just keep giving no reaction. He keep blaming himself. His eyes also same as dead. He doesn't have emotions anymore for now. "12 on his hand, that guy, has number 12 tattoo on his hand. He is the one who killed my family. That motherfucker, I will, I WILL KILL HIM!" Said Alan suddenly. Frank look at him, with disbelief. "Let's leave it to the cops, Al. Don't say that thing again." Said Frank. He keep looking at Alan, questioning himself. "What happened to you Alan? Is this what they told me about? Your surgery 6 years ago, is it this?" He can't believe that Alan could say that. Those words, he could feel how Alan felt. Vengeance, hateful and dreadful feelings. Both of them finally get into the car, Alan looked at the side mirror of Frank's car. He remembered how he killed the guy that shot Barbara. Made him feel different. Frank keep looking to his niece, worry as he feel like there's nothing left in his soul. 

      While Alan keep looking at the side mirror, he mumbles slowly, saying "I will kill them, I will kill them, I will burn them, behead them, torture them, until all of them get what they deserve!" Alan eyes slowly changed, he then become emotionless and he swear to God that he will make sure all of them die before he be himself again.