Changing Me

Chapter 14

"Denver summer house?" I asked confused

"Yea it was a vacation house that your parents owned, we were around 10 or 11 years old at the time" He said

" It was a red family home, walking distance from the beach and board walk" He added

I thought hard about what he saying trying to see if I can remember.

"I'm pretty sure I would remember if my parents owned a vacation house by a beach in Denver. Since I can't recall I have a feeling you're lying"

" If you want you can ask your parents about the house and me" He said while holding eye contact with me.

" I met you on the boardwalk one day when I lived there, I remember I was playing kickball with some friends and one of them kicked the ball towards you. I ran to get it and apologized but you stayed quiet. That was when I first layed eyes on you. You were this really cute shy girl, with big brown glasses. I guess you were shocked when the ball came towards you because your eyes were wide and your mouth was agaped" He said.

"After that I tried to get your name, but you had already started to run towards your parents. I thought maybe you just didn't like me or something or thought that we kicked the ball at you on purpose. After that I kept going back to the boardwalk in hopes on running into you again and explaining that it was an accident. My friends at the time thought I was over reacting and that it wasn't a big deal but for some reason I felt like I needed to see you again and say that. So my waiting payed off when I saw you again at the boardwalk. You were wearing a white dress and your hair was in a pony tail that time but once I saw those big brown glasses I knew it was you. I ran up to you as fast as I could and told you that it was accident. After that your parents smiled at me and whispered in your ear. I don't know what they said but it made you smile so big and you asked if you can join us. After that we played almost every single day. If it wasn't at the boardwalk, it was at your house."

As he's telling me this, small fragments in my memory start to piece together by themselves.

I remember.

My eyes start getting watery, and I feel a lump in my throat.

I remember. All of it.

Trevor stopped when he looked up to me. I seen him gulped. He knows I remember.

"I remember. That night. My last night ever in that house. You invited me to your friends birthday party as your so called date. I remember I dressed up. I felt the prettiest that I have ever felt. Like a princess. You picked me up and we walked towards your friends house. Apparently I was over dressed for the party. They all made fun of me, my hair, my dress, my shoes, and my big brown glasses. And you. You joined them and did it too. After telling me that I looked beautiful. That I was going to be the prettiest one there. you joined them and made fun of me. You helped them pick me up and dump me in the dumpster. My glasses fell and I couldn't find them and you didn't help me. My first and only friend that I thought I made. It was one of the most humiliating and worse betrayal I have ever experienced. You set me up" I said while grabbing my bag and fighting the tears.

"Janet I-"

"Trevor no just don't. Do not tell me you've been waiting to see me again to apologize. To give me excuses about why you did what you did, because honestly I don't need them. I do not need an apology because that was years ago, however I'd rather not have to see or speak to you again. I do not need our friendship or whatever it is, in my life right now and I certainly do not need your apology for your self satisfaction "

I stood from the table and left.

No wonder my brain did not want to remember. I never wanted to have that memory. I wanted to get rid of it. Over time I did and he just made it resurface.

I can not believe he only wanted me to remember so that he can feel satisfied with himself.

Once I got home, I made my way upstairs and buried myself in books.

I don't know how much time went by when I heard the knock on my door.

"Who is it" I asked

"Honey it's me" My mom answered

"Come in"

She peeked her head inside and came in. She sat at the corner of my bed.

I turned my attention to her

"What happened?" I asked

She sighed and looked at me

"Is everything okay at school?" she asked, concern all over her face

"Yea, why?" I said '

" I noticed you got detention recently and I also noticed you started hanging out with some questionable friends" she stated

"Mom honestly I got detention over a minor reason. I'm pretty sure the teacher was just in a bad mood that day. As for my so called 'friends', I don't have friends. I have a friend and she's the first real friend I've had since my whole life" I told her.

"Yea but honey her brother, and you know I'm just worried that a repeat from before would happen again. You tend to trust people easily and I just don't want you to put yourself in the same scenario me and your father kind of put you in" she said

"Yea about that, I met with Trevor today. I couldn't remember at first but then he started telling me and it all came back to me. Mom he literally only wanted to talk to me to apologize for something that happened so long ago. It's like he wants to feel like he's a good person" I said.

My mom shook her head

"You know when he first did that, I believed he was a good kid, good for you. I feel like when he betrayed you, he failed me and your father. I can not believe that he does that for self satisfaction " she said with a sad tone.

"Just be careful sweetie, don't trust so easily. I don't want to see you in that state again" and with that she gave me a kiss on the forehead and walked out the room.

I got ready for bed and tried to fall asleep.

I kept turning and tossing but my mind just kept running.

What if my mom's right and it's only a matter of time for me to get betrayed again.