Finding me (Howl x Reader)

PART XI CONFESSION

Howl was gone for some time. I spent the afternoon talking to Michael, Sophie and Calcifer. They tried to convince me to stay, but I was determined.

"I think Howl's got feelings for you." Sophie whispered to me. "He seemed to be upset all the time when I first came here. I was cursed you know, but that's a different story." She smirked. "Michael told me that Howl became somewhat depressed after you left. He says it only happens when Howl is truly in love."

I felt my heart sinking.

"And he was so happy and jumpy and excited since he brought you here. I couldn't believe it is the same Howl" she said and looked meaningfully at me.

"I am not sure that is going to change anything, Sophie" I said as the main door opened.

"Are you ready to go?" Howl asked me calmly.

I nodded and gave Michael and Sophie a hug. "Farewell, Calcifer" I said and walked to the door. Howl turned the knob several times and open the door. It was dark. Howl took my hand and we went into emptiness.

"I know it is a little different from what you experienced at the palace. This door is protected by a very strong spell" Howl explained.

After a minute I saw green hills, the sea, white cliffs. It's Wales, "My home" I screamed in excitement as we landed somewhere on a field.

"Before you go, would you agree to come with me to a very special place?" Howl asked.

"Of course. You brought me home after all" I replied honestly.

Howl took me by my waist, and we flew above the roofs, backyards, well-lit streets and busy roads with cars. We landed on a hill. It looked familiar.

"It's the hill, where I..." I said and Howl interrupted me.

"We first met here; you know." Howl said with a smile on his face.

"Wha- here?" I was confused "Are you that boy I followed to the palace?" I asked already knowing the answer.

"Why, of course I am." Howl said, and we stood in silence for a minute. "I fell in love with you that evening. You were so pretty, lying on the grass, reading a book"

I didn't know what to say. Too many thoughts came to my mind at once and yet my mind seemed to be empty. Light breeze felt nice on my skin. Howl sat down by the ruins and invited me to join him. I sat down next to him still silent.

"I asked Madam Suliman to meet you, but she always told me "no". Days and weeks passed, and I couldn't forget about you. After a few months I gave up looking for you at the palace. But I hoped to meet you all of the sudden. I thought if I didn't try, perhaps it would bring me luck." He said and pressed his lips for a second. "As you can tell it didn't work. I would have left the palace sooner, but something kept me there for years, now I know it was you. But the more I learned, the more I saw Madam Suliman's true face. I had to run away." He finished and sighed.

"That's how I knew where to find you in Witch of the Waste's castle" I realized.

"That's right." He said.

"Howl, I don't know what to say. I didn't expect an-" Howl interrupted me again.

"Just tell me if I have a chance. I cannot lose you. Not again."

"I – I thought you and Sophie.. I-, aren't you – " I mumbled.

Howl smiled gently.

"She's my friend. That's it" he said.

"I love you, Y/N" Howl said looking at me. He brushed my face with his gentle hands. "May I kiss you?" he asked.

"Ye-" I didn't finish saying when I felt his lips on mine. They were warm and soft. I closed my eyes and put my hands on his chest and then slowly moved one hand to the back his neck. As our lips parted, he smiled at me and moved closer. He grabbed me by waist and laid me on the grass.

"Well then, did you imagine me on top of you? Howl asked with a smile from ear to ear. I smiled a little embarrassed.

"Yes, I did." I answered as I grabbed his head and moved closer to mine. I whispered to his ear "In fact I imagined you taking me in every position possible. Everywhere. Those long, lonely nights at the palace... I didn't want you to save me, I wanted you to fuck me hard."

"That's my girl" Howl said and started kissing my lips and neck passionately. He tore my jacket open and took off my shirt. He kissed my breasts and unbuttoned my trousers while I was arching my back in pleasure. I slipped my hands under his shirt. His body was hot in all meanings of this word. I took the shirt off and moved on to his trousers. In a blink of an eye we were both naked on the hill we first met.

"Do you think we are rushing things?" Howl asked as he touched my waist and hips.

"I don't care" I answered "I don't want you to stop; I want to feel you inside of me"

He did as I asked. Our bodies were brushing against each other. Slowly at first. I wrapped my legs around him. "Don't you dare stopping Howl" I whispered. My moans got louder and louder and Howl was breathing heavily. He started moving faster and slid his hand down to give me even more pleasure. "Yes, Howl, yes, yes, yes!" I screamed and held my breath. It felt as if I died for a second.