Endless Love // A.S x Reader

Chapter II

Chapter 2

I woke up with my head pounding furiously, and my eyes squeezing together trying to adjust to the slightly dark room. Something was holding me down when I tried to get up. It's an arm. Anakin's arm. The event of last night is coming back piece by piece.

I squeeze my eyes shut, I was so embarrassed and I mentally curse at myself for acting so stupid. "Gosh why did I do that" I mentally said to myself. I had no right to be rude to Ani, he's a grown man and I'm a grown woman. Guilt slowly start to creep up on me, and I wanted to forget last night and my actions.

I turned around and slowly looked at Anakin carefully, not trying to wake him up. I felt a warm feeling spreading in my stomach and then my chest just by looking at him in this peaceful state. I wish I could stay here in his arms, even if it's just harmless and he probably wasn't aware of it himself. None of us had been aware of how we ended up like this, or I didn't.

Just a mere look at him made me forget I had hangover and that my head felt like someone was hitting on it over and over again. Not wanting to wake Anakin up, I carefully removed his arm and got out of bed and to the bathroom. I fell down to my knees again and puke out the remaining of the alcohol from last night.

I hope Anakin couldn't hear me I didn't want him to see me like this, even though he probably has. I flushed out my regret from last night. "Im never drinking again" I mentally noted to myself. The water from the sink was slowly running as I splashed water onto my face and washed my mouth. I took at myself in the mirror; my makeup was smeared all over my face, my hair was a birds nest, overall I looked like a disaster.

Maybe I should just get home before Anakin wakes up, so he doesn't see me in this state. I was already embarrassed and I didn't feel like getting confronted with anything. He knew me long enough to know that my actions last night was so unlike me. I rarely acted reckless like last night I was usually very preserved and had a way to present myself. So me carelessly flirting with Cody without shame was something I'd never do, when previously when we hung out with alcohol was out of question.

With careful steps I open the bathroom door and got ready to make a run for the bedroom door when Anakin's voice was heard "Going somewhere?" He asked in a sleepy tone, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath preparing myself to answer. "I was just about to leave, I didn't want to bother you anymore. Besides you've helped my enough I'll get out of your hair Anakin" I say that while I turn around to face him but the shame in me made me avoid any eye contact with him.

"Y/n," he breaths "You're no bother to me, you know I'm always here to help you" he continues as he sat up on the edge of his bed and stands up. As he's getting closer I took a step back. He noticed my actions and took the hint and didn't move any further.

"I'm sorry about the way I acted last night, I'm grateful for your help Anakin, but I must go. Thank you once again." As I say that I turned around and left his bedroom. I was about to pull down the handle of the front door, when I feel his hand wraps around my wrist preventing me from leaving.

"Why're your acting like this y/n. Have I done something to make you uncomfortable and did something happen to you" I could hear the concern in his deep morning voice. "I don't know what you mean and no why would something happen" I said this time looking him directly in his eyes.

"If you'll excuse me I have work soon, and I'd like to go back to my chambers and get ready." I couldn't bear to look at him anymore. I know I said I wouldn't blame him and I had no right to feel like this. I just couldn't help myself. Maybe I wasn't angry at him, I was just angry at myself for feeling like this, when I knew he could never commit to anymore or let alone me. I should be grateful that he's let me this close to him. He only trusts Luke and I.