Please listen to this song while reading the chapter. It was on repeat while I was writing and is now my new favorite song.
Tobias
"Tris!" I call her name again sobbing. She has to be okay, I can't do this alone. Not again. She doesn't respond. I hear a loud noise, another bomb. I look up at the sky, this is dangerous, I shouldn't be out here. Natalie can't lose both of us. Planes. Chicago doesn't have planes.
"Return Beatrice to us or face the consequences!" A booming voice says coming from the plane.
"NO!" I yell. They can't have her. She is mine. I can't lose her again. I see someone come out of Johanna's office, quickly. My vision is clouded by tears. I hope for a second that it is Tris but it isn't, it's only Johanna.
"Get up." She tells me, there's an edge in her voice, it isn't nice like it usually is.
"Is Tris okay?" I ask getting up and she shushes me only to nod.
"Where is she?" I ask as we walk into her office, my voice is barely there from yelling. She shushes me again, this time not as sharp, this time more soothing.
"Go below the desk and don't be too loud; they can't find out where she is." I walk over to the desk and slowly bend down. She's there, tears streaming down her face. She's in a ball pulling herself in only to make her smaller.
"Oh my god you're alive." I breathe out. I wrap my arms around her and kiss her forehead. I don't know what I would have done if she wasn't alive.
She wraps her arms around me and she sinks into my chest. She is safe in my arms.
"You gotta stop scaring me like that, you know. One day you might kill me." I'm serious but she still lets out a little laugh. It's only now that I realize there are tears in my eyes and my heart is pounding.
"I'm serious." I say my voice is breaking. She looks up at me and then barriers her head deep in my chest. Probably to escape the world.
"I'm sorry. And I would promise that I would but we both know I can't." She can't, I nod. She will never be able to make that promise. The promise to never leave me.
"What are we gonna do?" I ask my voice weak. She shakes her head in my chest and I pull her closer to me.
Johanna comes around the corner and looks at us.
"I have Zeke coming with a car that's gonna take both of you back to your apartment. And Marlene and Shauna are taking Natalie back to your apartment." I wonder if we got the house in Amity.
Tris pulls away from me and I hate the loss of feeling her against me.
We sit below Johanna's desk for a few more minutes silently, not touching. Until Johanna comes and informs us that Zeke is here. I take off my jacket and hand it to her.
"Here." I say. "Put the hood over your head so that no one knows it's you." she nods and zips it up. I can't help thinking about how much I like her in my clothes. I place my arm around her shoulder. I feel like if i'm not touching her she'll bolt.
We run to Zeke's car before the planes can see us. We get in and he looks at us.
"See Four, nothing to worry about." I glare at him. She could have died and he knows that. There was something to worry about.
We sit silent on the car ride home. I can't help but look at her every once in a while. I wonder what she is think. Probably about turning herself in. But I can't allow it. I won't lose her again. Just the thought of her leaving makes the tears that have been threatening to spill since the first bomb dropped makes them spill.
