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Max and Andy

Mika stood backstage, half an hour till showtime, He had done his best to focus on the music and how to play and it seemed to be doing well. He's stood on stage and tried to figure out where we best, even if he couldn't still he still wanted to face the audience, he didn't want to have to admit what was wrong to his fans and was scared to disappoint them. "Looks like a sold-out crowd," Max said grinning.

"That really helps my nerves, " Mika said annoyed, He wasn't trying to be mean he was just frustrated "I Don't know how I'm going to do this, you don't understand."

"My Cousins blind, she lost her sight after a stray firework when she was 15, Her parents didn't know how to look after her, since my mum had blind clients at work, we took her in, so yeah I know, She wanted to be a musician, she was really good at guitar but she never had the confidence anymore. me and my bother wanted her to help her be in the band but the other guys didn't want to have to baby her then I started Travelling with Lily then you so I don't really see her as much but I did my best to help and if this is permanent for you then I want to help you, your my friend Mika, your also my boss and I'd like to still have a job but your also my friend"

Mika smiled slightly giving a small laugh "Thanks, what's she doing now? " MIka asked interested. Maybe he had to push through He was going to be okay he shouldn't be scared this was life.

"She actually started her own blind musician charity helping blind people through music cause it helped her so much"

"Maybe I should visit sometime" Mika smiled

"She'd like that, but if you take this negatively I won't let you," Max said simply "You will do your best, you always do,"

"I'm just terrified that this is my life, I can barely walk straight, I feel like I'm going to fall evey time I move, I let someone do this to me and I've never felt more scared to go on stage since I came out" Mika admits honestly.

"It's not your fault" Andy sighs

"Can people account themself before they talk I didn't know you were here" Mika said going to hug him at least he hoped it was andy he was hugging

"I love you baby and you are going to be amazing as always allow the sound of the crowd to guide you" Mika smiled at Andys words he needed to relax to not focus on his eyes but on the music because that was what was important.

He took a deep breath as he heard the opening act finish.

"If you need me I'm here," Andy said simply he hoped he wouldn't be needed but he wanted to be here for his boyfriend.

Mika nodded "can you face me in the direction of the stage," Mika asked hearing his audio track start playing, He took a deep breath and walked on stage starting to sing lollipop.

Mika did his best to enjoy himself hyping up the crowd feeling the energy even if he couldn't see it, He had just finished I see you hed put it on the setlist as a joke but kept it on and it felt right now. He went to sit at the piano "You know I see you are actually really ironic that I'm singing now" He says as he started to play the notes of Grace Kelly, he was halfway through the show but he felt like he needed, to be honest, he cared about his fans and knew they would be supportive "I'll explain But First I want to hear you sing, the loudest you've ever been, He started singing Grace kelly ignoring the piano it felt too hard he was focused on too many other things to play as he sang the chorus he turned the mic to the crowd making sure they sang along hearing them echo "I can be brown.." Mika grinned wildly as He continued singing with them. As he finished he sat back down turning to hopefully face them.

"As I was saying, I see you are ironic because I can't, not just because of the lights, which I Assume are on, but I physically can't see, I lost my sight last night but still wanted to give you the best show I could but the energy isn't the same which I'm sorry for but I'm grateful for your voices. I'm not going to get into why but Hopefully it's only temporary but be patient with me " He smiled, he heard a few gasps as he spoke and was scared to hear the reaction "speaking of patience I think I need someone to come up here for the next song cause the last day he's been the most patience with me doing his best to be my eyes and deal with me, I'm mean he's been doing that that the past 16 years so will he join me " Mika asked he knew andy didn't want to come on stage he never did but he needed to know he hadn't left that he was still supporting him "if you don't come in stage I'll sing Only love you when I'm drunk instead" Mika teased hearing fans laugh before clapping as he assumed Andy walked on "I hate you " Andy spoke once he'd got next to him, Mika simply smiled before singing origin of love to him. Even if he was scared to go on he knew he would be okay cause he wasn't alone.