Saudade

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Me: Hey, I can see YN through this window. HII YN! HI ROC! *waves*
Cat: Yeah, they'll be there the whole time.
Me: okay 😔. YN, just told me you have to stick another needle in me and it's gonna hurt.
Cat: yeah, I'm sorry sweetie,
Me: well can't Roc or YN, come inside so they could hold my hand?
Cat: I'm sorry, they're not adults.
Me: let's just get this over with.
Cat: alright lay here. And I'm gonna need you to be really still. But I want you to relax. Not too stiff. So get comfortable.
Me: okay.
Cat: okay, I'm gonna rub this stuff on your knee so you won't feel the needle too much. It will numb out your knee. It's gonna give a burning sensation.

Cat began to rub some orange/brown thing all over my leg. It looked funny, but then it got hot.

Me: uh, cat. It's getting hot.
Cat: that's what supposed to happen.
Me: but now it's getting really hot. It burns!
Cat: I know Hun, I'm sorry. It'll go away.

I looked toward the window, and saw Roc and YN. They were looking at me, ... like YN looked sad . Roc gave her a hug and a kiss and she stopped crying. EWW cooties,😖. Then Cat, put a large blue light paper over my leg, with a hole in it above my knees.

Cat: okay, and now I'm gonna insert this needle
Me: 😳 what? That needle's way too big.
Cat: don't worry Hun. It'll be fine
Me: can I at least hold teddy 's hand?
Cat:of course. has the burning stopped?
Me: yeah.
Cat: did you feel that?
Me: Feel that what?
Cat: good. I pinched your knee and you didn't feel it so the Anastasia must be working... Okay, lie back and prop your knee up by bending your leg.
Me: like this
Cat: perfect. You're a pro. Now, I'm gonna need you to lie very still. do not move Chasity.
Me: Teddy hold my hand!
Cat: he'll be there the whole time.
Me: okay.
Cat: you ready?
Me: yes.

She took the big needle and the hemer-? hamer-? homer-? I dont remember how to pronounce it, he was in the room too. He's a specialist for blood disorders. As they put the light blue mask on their mouths and noses, I held Teddy even tighter. Then I felt it. The needle went all the way into my knee. And I felt it! I thought she said I wouldn't feel anything.

Me: OWWWW!
Cat: don't move we're almost done. Don't squirm

All at once, Teddy fell!

Me: Teddy! No!
Cat: you can't pick him up right now Chasity.
Me: but-
Then someone placed Teddy back in my arms.

Me: AUNTY SYL! You made it.
Aunty: Yeah, YN told me she agreed to running the biopsy so I had to come. I just had to, baby.
Me: oh aunty Syl! Thanks soo much. You're the best!
Aunty: no problem baby.
Me: you're gonna be a great mommy to my future cousins 😊