𝐁𝐖𝐖𝐌 + 𝐕𝐇𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐑 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒

Les' start over

AN: song helps with setting the mood :))

I was a late bloomer when it came to getting a boyfriends, having sex and hitting a glow up, all that jazz that teenagers can't wait for. My friends would come in and out with their new boyfriends and once they broke up I would be the first to comfort them.

Their experience also gave me ideas of what not to do in a relationship, what guys to stay away from and overall make me question why my friends had such an attachment to boys that don't even treat them right.

Now I realise how they felt. The feeling of attachment and love for one person only.

"Why exactly are we here?" My friend Yasmin asked as we walked through the crowded area of the theme park. It had a bit of a twist though, lots of illegal activity happens here, such as drug dealing, car racing, motorbike racing etc.

it changed location all the time and a few 100 of people had been invited, including myself and they had brought their friends with them, in my case Yas.

"Looking for somebody" I answered pulling her by the hand.

"It's Vinnie ain't it? Come in now y/n we do this every time, I thought you said you were done with him"

"You and Sheldon are always on and off, how are you any better" I said back.

"Him and I are now fully dedicated to each other now so you cant say shit" she raised her eyebrow as I rolled mine.

"Speaking of your lover, he's over there. Imma go look for Vinnie myself" I said letting go of her hand.

Before I could walk away Yasmin grasped my hand. "Okay but if you come back to me crying, I'm not feeding you ice cream like all the sloppy movie shit, you did this to yourself.... And be safe okay, this place is uh stingy" she said looking around us.

I nodded giving her a side hug. We shared our goodbyes and we walked away from each other.

I stood with my hands crossed over my chest as I found my destination. There he stood in all his glory, with a wasted looking girl around his arm. Grabbing a water bottle from the side I walked up to them, Vinnie watched me intensely.

Peeling her hand off of his arm, I held up the water. "Here, drink this" I said simply.

"Oh for me! Oooo, what drink is this??" The girl slurred almost making me laugh, but I held myself back wanting the situation to stay as serious as possible.

"Vodka"

She took a sip, tasting it and raising her eyebrow. "This doesn't taste like anything!"

"It's a special type of voddy"

She shrugged downing the drink. I shook my head turning my head to look at vinnie. Grabbing his hand, I lead him away from the girl and off the dirt road.

"You know I love you right?" I started, pulling his hand so it was on my waist.

He raised his eyes brow at me letting go of me. "Really? Cause it didn't seem like that when you were starting on me"

I pulled his hand back.

"Don't act like I just randomly went off on you, it was your doing too"

"Yeah well-"

Before he could speak, I put my hand up. "we're doing it again..."

"doing what again y/n?"

i glared at him sighing. "look vinnie I wanna be with you"

"We're together aren't we not?"

"Vin together as in, when we get into arguments the first thing you do isn't make me jealous with some wasted chick, instead we talk it out. Because right know this isn't working for either of us. I don't want us to be that one toxic couple"

"look here you go comparing us to every other couple, we're not perfect so what?!" he spoke and i shock my head.

"its not about being perfect vinnie! its about the way we treat eachother and if its healthy 'cause to me it really isnt"

Vinnie's eyes focused on the floor.

"It's up to you vinnie" taking his hand, I intertwined it with mine before letting it go.

Sighing I walked away.

Shit I did that. To say I was scared was an understatement, I was petrified. Vinnie was someone I really didn't want to lose, like, ever. But I guess it his choice now.

Surprisingly Yasmin was in the same place she was when I left her so it wasn't hard to locate her. I soon as she saw me she gave me a hug.

"What happened?" She asked.

I explained the whole situation to her as she rocked me back and forth in her arms.

"It's all for the best doll, this is kinda like the final test to see where his head is at, I'm proud of you bae" Yas smiled making me smile. 

"Are you gonna watch him race?" She asked.

I shock my head. "I think imma go home, is Sheldon able to give you a ride"

"Yeah, I was thinking of going home with him anyway" she nodded. Giving me final hug we said our goodbyes yet again. "Text me when you get home, be safe!"

....

3 days later, I felt a bit empty. Plus the days were rainy, only contrasting with my mood instead of making it better. 

I worked on E- school for the most of it and baking to make myself resourceful. If I say I hadn't cried I would be lying, for the first nights after I left the hidden fair, I cried myself to sleep. Memories of him and I just flowing through my head. My bed sheets smelt like him, it was like Him- Shaped thought stayed in my head, haunting me.

For the second night I felt regretful. I found myself waiting for him to come knocking on the door telling me he wanted me just as much as I wanted him. I regretted going up to him, even convincing myself that the way we were before was perfect and that I had fucked it all up.

But now I guess I'm slightly at peace.

looking out of the kitchen window it was still raining, the droplets on the surface raced down to the bottom. the rain was quiet memorising on dime days.

i was pulled out of my thoughts by my door bell being rang. i walking up to the door i opened it slightly.

i gaped at the sight. my lover stood soaking wet with wilting flowers and a box of chocolates. his hair stuck to his face and his clothes were darker then usual- the effects of the rain hitting them. his eyes were soft and he stood with an unusual shyness that you would never see in comparison to his hard and dominant demeanour.

"i love you y/n and i'm ready to start over" he said and my eyes clouded over. he dropped the items in his hands as i leaped into his arms. my care for the rain disappearing as he held me closer then ever.

his lips collided with mine within seconds, our mouth moving in perfect rhythm.

im so in love...

♡❀˖⁺. ༶ ⋆˙⊹❀♡

hello reader,

this book has now come to an end, i am so grateful for the support and love.

i hope you can continue this journey on with me through the upcoming stories that im working on.

but for the very last time...

𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊 <33

- 2lavish