Elayne
Trigger warning
This story includes depression, suicidal thoughts, self harm, nightmares, hallucinations, cheating and other such intense subjects.
When a loved one dies, many people find themselves feeling lost and miserable. However, for th...
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It's been 4 months since I've been in a relationship with August. I was planning to move in with him but I decided not to rush anything. I can sleep peacefully these days. He is always there to make sure that I am feeling alright. He manipulated me into learning a course that I never had in mind but I somehow ended up liking it. It matches my interest well. He just knows me inside out and I have no clue about how he does that. My mind is now mostly preoccupied with the learning materials rather than the self harm thoughts. August is always busy in his Father's company. He is smart and witty. I've learnt a lot about him in these past few months. He takes time out of his busy schedule just to take me on random dates. He is a good human being. Clave and August were quick to connect and they often hang out. Lola got a promotion at her job. She and I aren't always home as before. Everything and everybody in my life changed in a fast pace ever since I've met August. It feels like my life was slowing down to let him into my life. I don't think about Tyler anymore.The only thing that bothers me now is August and the memories of his past lover.
I don't talk to August about Tyler but every date that I went with him were places him and his ex lover had gone to. He even explains the memories he had with her at those places. He explained how her lips felt when he first kissed her and how beautiful she looked when he first saw her. He praises how brave she was, how kind she was, how special she was to him, how cute she was when slept in his arms, how her friends were his bestfriends, how unique she was and so on. He even imitates her gestures and tells me the random jokes she used to tell him. I have no idea why he is doing this. It was fine at first but it is so obvious that he still loves her just as much as he did before and unlike me, he never even tried to move on from her. He talks about her with so much love. He talks to me with lots of love too. The more I tried to ignore it, the more he kept on doing it. A familiar ache of fear was growing in me. I couldn't talk to him about this openly as he was treating me in the best way possible. I never wanted to make him feel bad about something he was cherishing in his heart.
It was eight in the morning and I was preparing myself to go to University. Lola already left for work after preparing breakfast.
"Why does she have to leave this early?"
I went through her wardrobe to find a pair of socks. All my stockings were missing for some reason and there was no way of me going out without my sneakers.
"Wahh.. She really is a material girl"
I rummaged through every shelves of her wardrobe and finally found it. To my bad luck, it was stuck. I took my whole strength to pull out it out and finally landed on the floor with the pair of stockings in my hands. Also, Something fell down from the upper shelf to my head.
"What a good day!" I thought to myself.
I took the purple box which was carefully covered with a lot of stickers. "This might be Lola's memory box Everybody has had one when they were younger right?" I didn't put much thought into it before deciding to take a look at what's inside. I know very few details about the life of Lola before I met her. I carefully opened the lid of the box. I saw a lot of polaroids stacked inside. "I was right! It's her old pictures." I chuckled as I was going through each of them. There were a lot of stickers inside. She even had greeting cards and paper origami in it. A smile formed on my face as I was going through each of the things inside it.
