We'll Get Through This

CHAPTER 07

MAYA'S POV

-Carina, you know I don't like injections or needles! There is no point in doing things the hard way! – I argued crossing my arms over my chest facing the woman sitting across from me in her office.

-Maya, I won't pass my genes on! It's not a possibility! – She said back, and I sighed in response throwing my head back, grunting in frustration.

-They're good genes! Imagine having tanned Italian babies with little brown curls? They would be cute babies! – I insisted, gesturing more than I would have liked, but now my wife's Italianism was already part of me.

-Bambina! No! – Carina got up and came around the table only to lean against it. Her face was grim, her forehead creased, and I knew she was also frustrated by this conversation. – That would mean increasing the chances of mental illness in our babies. I saw what my father went through, and how Bipolar 1 ruined my little brother's life. I would never increase our baby's chances of suffering as they did.

I looked down, embarrassed that I hadn't thought of it sooner. Of course, there was a good reason why Carina didn't want to use her own eggs, but still, just the idea of ​​undergoing a lengthy treatment for the maturation of my eggs, with daily injections of hormones that would make me bloated, nauseated, and sick... It made me nervous.

-Let's go to the appointment, maybe there is one more option that we are not seeing... – I commented, looking back at Carina.

-We could use an egg donor and a sperm donor, it's a possibility, but Maya... – She came to me and kissed my cheek briefly. – I would love to have your baby growing inside me. I know you don't like injections and you'll probably get side effects, but I'll be with you all the way, Bambina! I promise.

I nodded, not knowing what to say but also liking the idea that Carina wants to have my baby inside her. However the uncertainty and anxiousness were still overwhelming inside me. Carina took my hand before pulling me out of her office and directing me to a room at the end of the hallway on her floor, inside the room Dr. Addison Montgomery was talking on the phone and I could get the name "Charlotte" and "Cooper" and something about a practice in the middle of her speech, so I don't think they were Gray Sloan doctors.

-I'm sorry for that, ladies! – Addison turned to us seconds after ending the call, a big smile on her lips. – Please sit down! Carina, I can't tell you how happy I was to hear that you guys would try to have a baby and although obstetrician patients are the worst kind of patient, I think we'll have a beautiful journey together!

-It's not me you have to worry about! – Carina joked pointing with her chin in my direction. – I promise I'll try to behave myself and not be an annoying patient.

-I'm not promising anything. – I spoke right away and rolled my eyes when the two obstetricians laughed. – I do not belong to your world; you'll have to be patient with me.

-Don't worry, Maya! We are used to first-time moms. – The redhead winked at Carina, and they exchanged a knowing smile, a bit too knowing for my liking. – So, do you already know how you're going to do it? You have a pretty good idea of ​​how this process goes, Carina. Have you explained a little to Maya?

-We... We're having a slight stalemate. I don't want to use my eggs and Maya doesn't have a good relationship with needles so the fertility treatment period would be a challenge. – The Italian started speaking and then took one of my hands in hers, squeezing it gently before continuing. What reassured me was realizing that there were no judgments coming from Carina, she was trying to understand my side, there was no pressure just understanding. – Could you explain the treatment to her a little better?