ONE SHOTS🍒| STRAY KIDS

31. The End

Band: Stray Kids
Ship: JiLix
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Imagine having to be in a world where the love of your life isn't. Imagine having to sit and watch from the sidelines as they slowly break apart.

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Felix sighed once again as he sat on the chair by the window. The smells of the hospital making his nose twitch.  The beeping from the heart monitor slowly starting to drive him mad, but he knows it only means good things. His chin rested on his palm that was perched up on the armrest of the little chair. The uncomfort slowly starting to feel like a 6th sense. The view of the other patients walking around the courtyard with their IV's and doctors, Others with family; birds and bees flying around. How he wish they could be outside enjoying the view together like the old days. Just sitting on a bench smiling and laughing, joking around, hands intertwined; but unfortunately that wasn't possible anymore. He wiped the stray tear that had fallen and looked back at the hospital bed.

The boy laying there as beautiful as ever. His brown hair grew out faster than expected, reaching all the way to his nose. His sickly pale skin, still soft, but so cold. His beautiful eyes that was a blessing to see everyday now was wired shut, shielding the world from its beauty. His now thin frame Felix once called fragile was now exactly that, fragile. One touch and he could break, bruise.

The slow movements of his boyfriends arm brought him out of his thoughts. "lix...?" Voice soft like harps, raspy but still has the slight deepeness that it's always had. Felix quickly got up and held onto the olders hand. "I'm here baby." He says. Jisung looks up at the boy and flashes a small smiles. He interlocks their fingers. Felix nearly sobs at how thin the boys hand had gotten. His fingers were now more slender and boney.

"Can I ask you something?" Jisung mumbles. His eyes were stuck on their hands together and his other hand fiddled with the boys fingers. "Sure." Felix pulled the chair from the desk closer towards the bed and sat down. His other hand brushed through Jisungs hair. "What happens when it all comes to an end? What happens the day my heart stops beating? The day my eyes close unable to open again? What happens then?" 

Felix can't say he hadn't thought about it too. Everyday it was like a voice that he kept pushing to the back of his head ignoring it and saying it was a problem for future Felix to deal with. Only this time he can't ignore it because he is future Felix. He sighed and let the tears he's been holding back fall. "I-I don't know sung...I just don't know..." Jisung sniffles as his eyes begin to water.

"Promise me something...." "Anything Jisung." "When it happens, please stay with me. Don't let me go through it alone." Felix couldn't help it. He tried to push the sob back down but he just couldn't help it. He started sobbing. "I promise baby, I promise I'll stay here for as long as possible. I'm not leaving your side."

They both sat in silence for the next hour, the occasional sniffs being the only thing to come from their mouth. Until Jisung let out a sob like laugh. "You know the day I collapsed.....I was supposed to propose...."

The youngers eyes widened. Jisung looked up at him and smiled, tears falling from his eyes. "I had the whole thing planned out. I'd take you to dinner then we'd go for a walk where Chan and Changbin were supposed to set up the "will you marry me sign?" on the beach and bring the rings. But........we never even made it out the restaurant........ I remember being so nervous and scared as to whether you would say yes or not."