heart racer ; xiao

• the advice i seek

I attempted to grab anything at this point, only putting my grip on the window of his car. It was hot and I couldn't breathe, the air and tension was suffocating.

'Xi- Xiao' I attempted to say his name in between moans. His amber eyes looked at me and hummed in response.

The vibration was the cherry on top at this point. My mind was hazy except for the feeling of his tongue on my skin.

'Cl-' I was gasping for air, trying my best to form words but ultimately failing. 'Close..'

His tongue left my sex for a moment and he looked up again. 'I can't understand you if you don't use your words.' He hovered over me and grabbed my chin, forcing me to look at him. 'Speak.'

I used this moment to catch my breath and attempt to recollect myself. 'I'm.. close..' I gasped. 'Pl-please..' He looked me dead in the eyes.

'Good girl.'

I woke up in a sweat. I sat up in bed and rubbed my eyes for a moment before I looked at my phone to check the time.

It was 7:30 AM now but I couldn't bring myself to go back to sleep, after that dream. I went to go take a shower to wake myself up, refusing to sleep again.

As similar as this is to yesterday, the shower is not the place to be for these thoughts. I thought about the dream I had just had while I felt the water pelt against my chest.

'Good girl.' He had said in the dream. My hand began to subconsciously travel to the lower part of my body. Once I realized how far I had traveled, I stopped myself

No way am I feeding into these desired thoughts. It's just a dream, it's nothing real nor does it mean anything.

After I finished the shower, I got out to go get changed and make some breakfast. I looked myself in the mirror for a moment and swear I saw a glimpse of him behind me. I turned around to see nothing.

What in the world is going on with my mind..

I made myself some toaster waffles just to be simple and easy. Upon pouring the syrup on the waffles, I felt mesmerized by the syrup, thinking to a similar substance from my dream.

I shook my head and looked at the waffles in disgust. "Yeah, I think I'll pass on breakfast." I went to the couch to watch some TV, at least until something interesting came to my mind for the day.

I couldn't keep my mind away from the dream. It kept circulating back through my mind. The car, skin on skin, the heat from our bodies, his hands, his tongue.

I didn't want to accept these as true feelings. Then a thought came to my mind, to the expert perv himself.

I pulled my phone out to shoot a quick text if I could come over and hangout with him at the garage.

stupid ginger👺

chiilldeee
are u busy?

no,
what's up?
does my sweetheart require
my presence?😏

watch yourself..
i just wanted to hangout
at the garage for a bit
testin a theory rn..🤫

u don't have to ask,
just come whenever🤑

I turned my phone off and made my way out of my apartment, grabbing my keys, wallet, and putting shoes on.

This was a good opportunity for him to look and see if my car needed any replacements, repairs, or changes. But I'm going there for a bigger reason, to prove something in my mind.