Decalcomania | JJK

24: Hollow

Stroking some of the final strokes onto the canvas the now not naked canvas was accompanied by black paint and the hairs of the paint brush that Nia pressed onto it.

It would be a lie to say Nia hadn't cried for a few minutes if not a whole hour before the girl could get herself to touch the canvas.

Belongs to Jungkook

The words kept repeating in her head as she sat on her stool feeling stupid and most utterly a gross person.

She never wished to hurt Jungkook and it frustrated her so much that she didn't have control over the situation when her best friend moved closer and connected their lips. It hurt even more that it was against her will this happened and that it had affected Jungkook.

Right, Nia was regretful of this whole situation of Jungkook being mad at her, but what made the girl feel even worse was hearing his song.

Hearing how it not only took a toll on their relationship, but also on Jungkook's view on people.

It's not like Jungkook couldn't trust Nia. It's right that the girl didn't move right away when her best friend kissed her, but it was the shock in the moment that made her freeze. This incident didn't happen to define Nia's trust value. Jungkook could still trust Nia to the fullest and she hated that this would've maybe broken that trust forever.

Did she destroy Jungkook's personal growth? She knew how much he had grown since she started talking to him. He gained trust and confidence in her. But did she ruin it?

And why didn't she just open the door to the studio, enter it and hug him, tell him she was sorry, tell him that she would never hurt him, tell him that she loves him.

You cannot see your reflection in boiling water. Similarly, you cannot see the truth in a state of anger.

She knew Jungkook was hurt. And she was angry. Angry that Hoseok kissed her without permission and knowing that he had a boyfriend. It frustrated her so much and made the girl miserable just to think that it could possibly ruin her relationship with Jungkook.

The girl sitting on the stool in the corner of her room was not dumb. She knew herself.

Therefore she took a step back to breathe and comprehend the situation. She didn't want to let her frustrations about the situation out on Jungkook, because he had the right to be hurt. But Nia did not kiss Hoseok. She did not want, nor did she ask for it.

So she decided to give Jungkook some space and herself some time and made a painting while that.

Because no matter what, her anger and disbelief did not entitle her to have Jungkook forgive her without a genuine apology.

She was forcing herself not to text him over and over again. She forced herself not to call him and tell him that she loved him. She really did love him. And she wanted him to know, but not just over a stupid text.

In the evening, she wanted to call him and tell him goodnight even though it was only 7 pm. It was one of the hardest things to keep herself from doing.

The painting was finished and Nia was ready to go to bed. She was exhausted emotionally. Tracing her fingers over the lower corner, she read his handwriting once again.

"Belongs to Jungkook." She whispered out loud with deep breaths, trying to maintain a steady voice.

But it was hard.

Because her breath was shaking, on the verge of breaking down at the thoughts.

She belongs to Jungkook. But does Jungkook belong to her?