Cinderella returns

Chapter-15 And it hurt..

One of the hardest things for a person to do is, to put their feelings into words. There are times when words just don't do enough justice to the bunch of emotions you are going through. You cannot express the size of smile on your face, cannot explain how it feels to have that silly feel in your diaphragm every time he smiles, and sometimes, you cannot even explain how badly you are hurt.

You are probably wondering why I decided to rant about this.

Have you ever read something that killed you inside?

 Like someone's status or a text message or something of the same sort?

Everything was going fine until you came across that something you didn't want to read, or you found out something you were better off not knowing about.

It's almost as if it was posted purposely to hurt you, or to mess with your head. You feel that someone's actions or words were meant to get to you. Those words were written for you to read, and be saddened or hurt by them.

And at times, even if those words have got nothing to do with you, you perceive them in a different light, you reflect on them in a different sense, something that is a little too personal. Something only you can relate to.

And what do you do?

You constantly read that over and over again, to torture yourself, to widen that one hell hole building up in your chest, to lead yourself to more pain and suffering. But do you show how much you're hurt or how you feel betrayed when someone's actions destroy you inside out?

No. You just put on a fake smile and pretend to be okay, even though you are breaking inside.

And thus they say,  'Fake it till you make it'. Cause that's how the world is supposed to work right? It is a place, where you've got to mask every single emotion you are feeling and keep that poker face on and keep running. And that's how it is.

Life is a big fat race where, if you don't keep running, people will gladly throw you out.

Now, before I get distracted once again, and share with you my oh-so-deep thoughts, Let me just tell you that this long deep philosophy had something to do with a guy.

Any guesses?

You're right, ladies and gentlemen, the one and only Cameron Grey. The day was going pretty much what I call normal, well apart from that little 'incident'. And the conversation that we had at night was the reason for my sudden outburst of sadness.

I'll let you read that for yourself.

Cameron- Hey Melanie ;) Long time huh? :P

Me- Umm we just had a conversation 3 days back, where you told me about your childhood obsession with superheroes. :P

Cameron- Ouch princess, You totally ruined my introductory line: P. If someone tells you "Long time no see" You're supposed to say "yeah, I missed you too": P

Me — Well, my parents told me once that lying is a bad habit: P

Cameron- You hurt my ego princess: /

Me- Yeah Yeah: P. so what brings you here at 11:00 p.m. or were you just missing me too much? : P

Cameron- I have something to share.

Me- Umm well, Go ahead. I am all ears/eyes.

Cameron- I don't know how to say this, but have you ever liked someone so much that everything about them becomes special?.

Me- Does Mr. Cocky has a new eenie weenie crush? :p

Cameron-  Well, If that's what you call it :P I might be falling for her.