Cinderella returns

Chapter-14 Falling for someone

Evanya's P.O.V.

When I wake up, I don’t find him next to me, cuddling me the way he was in my dreams. And then suddenly reality hits me like a ton of bricks

Why’d he be here? What difference do I make in his world? Why would he risk being seen with me, after all he has a reputation to guard.

And with my mind crowded with that bunch of feelings, I start my journey towards home, after collecting my belongings from my locker of course. School had long been over and I had been lying in that shed dozing off. My head had become a mess. A thousand thoughts were swirling over there.

Did I know what falling for someone feels like? It’s must the same as jumping off a cliff with the confidence that you won’t fall, Just by simply knowing out that there is someone out there to catch you. There exists someone who just smiles thinking about you. There is one person in this world, who constantly wishes to talk to you, who laughs with you, cries with you and holds you when you’re about to lose it all. That one person who won’t let you cry for all, one person who would crack a silly joke at your darkest times and then tickle you till you are up with that vibrant smile of yours. And simply the knowledge of the fact that your presence makes a difference to someone’s world is enough to send you in frenzy. It’s sufficient for you to have that prominent blush on your face, along with the thousands of butterflies that erupt in your stomach.

Love, it must be hard to put that feeling into words. It’s must like telling a description of what dying feels like, something one just cannot do. It’s a special kind of bond between two ordinary people. Two people who weren’t prepared for it. Two people had never foreseen each other as lovers. But love, it’s unexpected. It finds you and stirs you in your darkest times and leads you a beautiful bliss, A place, where you don’t encounter loneliness or sadness. It is a special emotion that two people share, where they laugh, they cry, they smile and they talk, and they don’t even want to sleep because then you maybe without them for  minute and you don’t want that.

You start loving yourself, just because someone else loves you. You begin to smile at yourself in the mirror, you see them all around you, laughing with you, accompanying you or just holding your hand, and whenever, you watch a romantic scene you can imagine the two of you at their place.

But it’s not all roses. It has a darker side too.

There are times when you’d feel that the world is closing up on you, that you have no one to talk to if you’re not with them. You’d feel like dying every second’ every minute’ every hour.

And we feel that Human life is the MOST COMPLICATED in this world. You’ve got tons of emotions to deal with, thousands of hardships to face, hundreds of goal to achieve and all you need is the support of that one person.

And at times, the feelings you’ve got for someone are not easy to deal with like a piece of cake. These emotions they meet you, they make you smile, they make you laugh; make you fall in love, and then when all is going just fine, they destroy you. And destroy you so hard that you forget how to live. You forget that you were sent here for a reason, you forget the reason for your sole existence, and you forget that you’ve got some objectives to accomplish. You just forget it all. And all of this just because of that one single person, that someone who till yesterday, didn’t even exist in your life, That one person whose one smile or laughter is enough to brighten up your day, that someone who you’d kill to be with. That guy who in an unknown way owns you, He has you wrapped around his little finger.

But you have no idea, how to come out of this magical spell. You just don’t know how to deal with sudden anger, happiness, jealousy, possessiveness, laughter, tears and a dozen of other emotions that enter your life just with his presence. A bunch of sentiments that till yesterday you weren’t even acquainted with have become a part of your daily existence.

And how did he manage to make way into your heart? You just don’t know.

You grow attached to them, want to talk to them, hear him say anything that comes into his mind and to just to be with you. You want them to share with you how their day has been so far, hear him complain, hear him say He’s tired, hear him laugh and just behave like a normal teenager.

And you want to see the real him too. Tell him that you’re in love with that real him, not what he pretends to be with, The one who has got scars of the past, someone without the mask, someone who he doesn’t show to the world. The real him. The one who has got his own share of insecurities, dreams and passion, who is as scared of falling in love as you are, someone who is afraid of rejection too. And you accept them for that.

I had a lot of questions, Questions that had no answers at the moment. And I had come to terms with that fact. But one thing was clear in there

I am going to go with the flow right now, and see where it leads me.

And as they say It’s better to have a life of ‘Oh wells’ and ‘What if’s’.