COUNTDOWN: Enchanted to meet you

EPILOGUE

Jason

My mom once went to this Korean Shaman because she had lost hope in my brother finding love and to be fair, that guy sure was hopeless.

He was such a dork but the shaman told her he would find one and so would I.

I think I found her

Of course there was a lot of things I wished I could have done differently but as selfish as I could force myself to be, I still cannot regret the little prank the guys pulled on Lucy because that's what led me to the principal's office and then to the drama club and then to Julie.

It hurts. Really bad.

I had no idea how much losing her would affect me until today as I stood infront of the church blankly staring at her laying so peacefully in the coffin.

Would I change anything if I had the chance to? Definately.

If only I knew, I would have spoken to her a long time ago. And that day I saw her at the Hospital, I should have walked up to her.

Maybe it wouldn't hurt this bad if I did.

"okay now let's kindly get seated" I heard the priest say but I couldn't bring myself to move. I just stood there.

Honestly, it felt like I was still in denial, waiting for her to open her eyes like she did that day in my car and groan about how tired she was although she just slept but she didn't.

"Gentleman, please get seated"

In any minute. Just one more minute and then she would open her eyes again and ran into my arms like she did at the hospital.

Just like that day in the hospital.

It wasn't until I felt someone tap me that reality dawned on me and I managed to gather myself back to my seat.

"Not everyone gets to write their last letters to their families before they die so it is definately an honour to be able to do this."  Her Father read.

"I really wish I could see your faces as you hear or read this but imagining it works too.

So first, to my mum. I am the luckiest girl in the world to have a mother like you and in my next life -if I get any- I would always choose you.

Dad, I don't even know where to start except you are the best father in the world. You always supported me and acted strong but I could see how much you were hurt and I'm sorry for letting you bottle that up.

And to RJ, remember your promise? Please be strong and help the family go through this. I know you try to act tough sometimes but deep down you love me and it might come to you as a surprise but I love you too.

Erica, if you're wondering, yes you can have my room and my laptop. Yes and that jacket you always wanted. Don't worry, they won't be hunted.

Erica, I want you to know that I love you too okay? I really wish you could hear me say that one last time before I go. Don't beat yourself about what happened, it wasn't your fault.

Derrick, I got to tell you what I wanted to say but I'm going to repeat it, I'm glad I had you in my life. All the times we spent, talking, playing games and fighting will always be in my heart.

I could go on and on about how much I appreciate everyone who could make it here today - yes I know but that would take forever and this story needs to end sooner or later.

But I can't finish this without adressing one last person.

AND TO THE GUY I MET ON MY LAST DAY...

It was just 24 hours but it was the best 24 hours of my life. For a minute, just a minute, I almost changed my mind because meeting you was indeed one of the best decisions of my life and if I had to live that day all over again and again, I wouldn't change a single thing because in 24 hours you thought me what falling in love was like and it was enchanting."

And for the first time ever since her death was announced, I cried.

I weeped like a little boy because I couldn't imagine how I was going to go back to living normally again.