𝚆𝚎𝚋𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝙵𝚊𝚝𝚎

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙾𝚗𝚎

Staring down at the street under me I sighed. I stood on the ledge staring down the tall building. Cars drove by and beeped at each other communicating their moves. People walked to their destinations minding their own business completely unaware of what was going on above them. I watched the cars and people in a trance, the anxiety washing away from me as my final decision was made.

I checked my phone one last time.
Nothing.

I put it back in my pocket and sighed once more. I wiped my eyes getting rid of the small tears forming and looked down the building once more. It was a long way down. 'Should I do a backflip? One last fun thing?' I thought to myself. I shook my head and thought against it. 'I'm just dragging this out.' I thought again. I turned around and then fell backward off the ledge of the building.

Now falling to my death.

I closed my eyes and allowed myself to focus on the peace that would soon follow. I felt myself fall faster the longer I was falling. But then I was grabbed and felt myself being swung around as an arm held me tightly around my waist. I opened my eyes confused and saw I was being held by Spiderman. I furrowed my brows in frustration as I yelled at him. "Why did you do that!?" I yelled. But the wind from swinging was too loud for me to be heard.

I looked down and saw people look up and point every now and then. We soon landed on the roof of a building that was too short to result in death. I turned around and looked at him with angry tears in my eyes. "Why'd you save me!?" I said angrily, trying not to let my tears fall. "You're welcome..?" He said confused. "No! Not you're welcome! I was supposed to die!" I said taking an angry step towards him. He raised his hands in surrender as he took a hesitant step back.

"You wanted to die?" He said his voice sounding sad.

"Yes! You idiot!" I yelled.

The hot tears began to fall down my face as I ran my fingers through my hair and rested them on my head. I walked in a circle trying to calm myself down. "Hey.. do you want to talk about it..?" He asked hesitantly as he softly placed his hand on my shoulder just to quickly take it off. I looked at him with wide eyes and quickly sat down wiping my eyes. "Sorry! I-I didn't mean to make it worse!" He frantically said worriedly as he squatted down in front of me.

"No...you didn't. It's just...no one's ever asked me what was wrong before.." I trailed off.

"Then.." He paused in thought. "What's wrong? I mean, maybe I can help you." He said a little hopeful.

"My mom died.." I mumbled between sniffles.

"What?" He asked softly.

"My mom died!" I said raising my voice and looking at his masked eyes. "That's why I tried to kill myself." I said plainly.

He silently sat next to me and was going to pat my shoulder but stopped mid-action. "It's ok..." I mumbled. He then placed his hand on my back and rubbed soothing circles. Oddly enough his action of sympathy helped calm me down. I rubbed my eyes and got rid of my tears. "If you don't mind me asking..how recent was it?" He asked softly. "About two days ago. She had breast cancer, I tried everything to help her but it just wasn't enough." I sniffled.

"I'm so sorry that happened. I know what it's like to lose someone you care about." He trailed off as if recalling the memory was too painful.

I looked at him as I wiped away some tears. "Who'd you lose?" I asked. "My uncle." He said looking away. My depressed mood had infected him as he stared at the sunset in front of us. "You know...if you killed yourself, you would've missed this beautiful sunset." He said looking back at me. The way he spoke I could tell he had a soft smile on his face. I softly chuckled and looked at the sunset nodding. "I guess you're right." I looked at him with a sad smile.

"Ah, I got you to laugh. See I said I could help." He pointed at me.

I couldn't help but smile again as I wiped away the last few tears. He had officially gotten me out of my episode. "You're too good at your job." I looked back at the sunset. "Is that bad?" He asked softly chuckling. I shook my head still looking at the sunset. "No not at all." I said with my small smile never leaving but then soon faded as I was in deep thought. He noticed my shift in mood and looked at me, tilting his head to show he was confused.

"What am I going to do with my life?" I asked covering my face in my hands.

"Well, what did you always want to do?" He asked.

"You'll call me a nerd."

"I promise I won't." He held up the Scout's honor sign.

"Robotic engendering." I said cringing at myself.

I looked at him realizing the sun had set and it was now dark. "Hey wait, aren't you supposed to be on patrol?" I said standing up quickly. He stood up as well and stretched. "Yeah, but I'd say this is more important." I looked at him confused. "How is saving someone who wants to die more important than saving someone who doesn't want to die?" I asked, my brows furrowing in confusion. "Because you don't want to die, you just want the pain to stop. I know because I was like that too." He explained.

I was taken aback by what he had said. 'Maybe he was right.' I thought to myself. "Let's get you home." He reached his hand out for me to grab, pulling me from my thoughts. "You're going to take me home?" I asked confused once again. "Well, I want to make sure you get home safe. There's a lot of creepy guys out at night." He said beckoning me to take his hand. I took his hand and he brought me closer pulling me by the waist into his side. "You might want to hold on tight." He chuckled softly noticing the light blush dusting my cheeks.

I flusteredly wrapped my arms around his neck. Once I was secure he swung me home as he followed my directions. It was nothing special. Just a small cozy apartment. He landed us on the fire escape right outside my bedroom window. He opened my window and used his arms to display the open window. I couldn't help but giggle at his gesture. "Thank you for taking me home and not leaving me on the roof." I smiled. "I had to make sure you got home safe. It's my job." He said in a happy voice.

"I'm glad I could help you, I hope you do better soon. If you ever need me just get into some trouble." He added with a chuckle before swinging away.

I watched him swing away into the distance as the city lights illuminated his path. I climbed through my window and closed it making sure it was locked. I sat on my bed in disbelief. So much has happened today. So many crazy things.

I wanted to kill myself, hell I even tried to do it.

But then he saved me...

Part of me wishes he didn't but part of me is glad that he did show up when he did.

Maybe he was right...?

Maybe I didn't want to die and I just wanted the pain to stop..?

But even then..

I still feel so alone...

•♡• A/N: This is the start of my Spiderman X reader! Sorry it's short, this was to set up everything. While we're here, is there anything you guys want to see happen? •♡•