What About Us, Well What About Me (Fuenciado Fanfic)

Fight In Paradice

Jamie's POV

I stood there and watched them for a while, nothing happened, so I don't think Vic liked her or anything. They were talking and she kept rubbing his arm and batting her eye lashes, I can't believe that whore would think Vic wanted he- They kissed and Vic didn't pull away. He tangled his hands into her hair and she was pulling his hair, trying to turn him on. I can't watch this anymore. I need to leave, I know what I want to do and no one is going to stop me.

My eyes started to tear up and I started I feel weak. I can't believe I thought he would like me. Why would he? I'm a freak. I started walking to the bar, "hey guys" I said as I sat down by them, trying to sound like I wasn't crying. "What's wrong Jamie? Why were you crying bro?" Tony said sounding very worried. I just pointed my head toward Vic and that chick. "Oh man, I'm sorry bro, I know you have strong feelings for him. I think it's just the alcohol in him. He has feelings for you and we can see it, ain't that right Mike?" Tony asked Mike, "yeah he does. I know my brother, and he told that he has a lot of feelings for you, it's just the alcohol man don't take it to heart," Mike said trying to make me feel better, it didn't work. "When people are drunk they do what they've always wanted to do, but it's whatever man, I'm tired. I'm gonna head back to the house. See you when y'all get home?" I said trying to sound tired. "Okay man, get a cab, you don't look like you're in any condition to drive," "okay man, bye" I said hugging them both. At least they still loved me.

I got a cab and I told him my address. I can't believe I thought he liked me. No one would like a fuck up like me. You know that's right, I don't see why you don't listen to me, I'm always right, the voice inside my head said.

When the cab got to our house I thanked him and when inside, the alcohol feeling has worn off and all I can think about is one thing, my razor. I've had a problem with cutting before and I've tried to stop but something always makes me to go back to it. I found my razor in my drawer, "old friend me meet again" I said out loud.

I went into the bathroom I grabbed a hand full of pills front he cabinet and took them, then I put the razor to my skin and started to make little scratches, it felt good. "Vic, I hope you and that girl are having a good time" I thought and began to make the cuts go deeper an deeper. They hurt and stung a lot, just like how I felt when I saw Vic with that girl, he hurt me so bad and I don't even think he knows. I started feeling a little dizzy, but I kept cutting.

My arm was covered bleeding but and I felt as if I was going to pass out right then. "Holy fuck! Jamie!" I heard someone yell, my vision was blurry and I couldn't tell who that was. "Dude get your ass in here now! It's Jamie! He's bleeding and his arm is covered in cuts!" Mike said and Tony came rushing in with some stuff, I couldn't see what it was. He started bandaging my cuts up and cleaning the deep ones. said again, Mike and Tony were debating if they should take me to the hospital or not. They decided to call one of their nurse friends to come and look at me. I can hear everything they are saying but I can't see.

"Hey dude can you come over now? It's Jamie, he cut himself really bad an I think he took some pills. We bandaged up his cuts and they aren't really bleeding anymore, but he won't wake up and Mike and I are really worried," the person on the phone said something I couldn't understand "okay thanks man! Ill see you in a few minutes, you're the best" Tony said before hanging up the phone.

I think I went to sleep, when I woke up I could see again but I felt groggy and Mike, Tony and some boy I didn't know were staring at me, where was Vic. "What happened? Where's Vic? Why are y'all staring at me? Who is he?" I asked, I was really confused, then I remembered as I looked down at my wrist. They didn't say anything, just looked at me as I figured out what I had done, I started to cry. "Oh.. Guys I'm sorry, I don't know what I was thinking. I'm really sorry" I choked out threw my tears.

Vic's POV

I pushed the girl off of me. "Stop! I'm gay I don't like girls now leave me alone!" I yelled at her. Who did she think she was. What if Jaime saw? Oh no Jamie! I started looking for him, but I couldn't find him anywhere, I haven't seen Mike or Tony either.

I started to leave the club and I ran home, I couldn't wait for a cab. If Jaime saw he would think that I liked her and not him. "Tony!? Mike!? Jaime!? Are y'all here?!?!" I started to tell as soon as I walked into the house. I ran up stairs and that when I saw it. They were all in Jaime's room, surrounded his bed and there was towels with blood on them. Oh no Jamie!

"Jamie! Are you okay?!?!" I said as I walked into his room. His arms were bandaged and he looked like he was crying. "No he's not! He cut himself over you Vic! Why do you care about him now? You didn't care when you were sucking that chicks face off! You hurt him Vic and y'all need to talk now!" Tony screamed at me, the Mike, Tony and John left the room. John was a doctor so I'm guessing they called him when they found Jaime. "Jamie listen, it's not what it looked like. I promise-" he cut me off be fore I could finish "no, it was exactly what it looked like, you were kissing her and you don't like me. I get it but why? Why don't you just tell me instead of hurting me so bad?" He asked me, he just doesn't get it and that makes me bad, so mad I started to yell, " Jamie listen, and don't interrupt me! I didn't kiss her, she kissed me! I'm inlove with you Jaime! I've always been. She did that to me. I didn't put my hair in her hair, she did. And I never want you doing this to yourself again. In here for you, always. I don't ever want you to think that I don't love you. I will love you as long as my heart is beating and I will still love you when in gone. I couldn't imagine you not being here with me. You mean so much to me, don't hurt yourself again, please" I finished, I wasn't mad anymore I was hurt. I even had a tear come down my cheek and I didn't notice until Jaime wiped it away. He looked up to me and kissed me. A sweet passionate kiss, like he was saying sorry without saying a word, I kissed him back and soon he was flicking his tongue on my bottom lip begging for entrance, I let him and he started exploring my mouth with his tongue. This feels good; right, like we were always supposed to happen.

Soon he pulled me on top of him and started running his hands down my thigh and grabbed my ass, I let out a soft moan. "Jamie stop, I can't do this right now" I said, I really wanted to go farther but I couldn't do it while he has this cuts on his arm. It killed me knowing this something this beautiful could do that to himself. It hurt worse knowing they were because of me. "Why? Too soon?" He asked, "kinda, and I can't do this while you have to cuts on your arm, lets go down stairs and let the boys know whats going on with us... Wait what is going on with us?" I asked feeling silly. "We are together, I mean if you want to be, but I would like to be with you-" he was starting to ramble so I kissed him to shut him up. "I would love to be with you," I said kissing him again. He was blushing and smiling, he looked adorable. "Now lets go down stairs!" I said getting off of him.

[A/N I didn't edit this before I Uploaded it last night so i'm going to edit this and hopefully if I don't have too munch anxiety, I will upload a new chapter]