Silent Love

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Shehnaaz

With an insuppressible grin on my face, I walked back into the flat. A hint of a smile was still dancing on my lips as I walked into the living room but it was fazed when confusion swarmed over my brain, "Where's Karan?"

Deepika narrowed her eyes at me, studying me unusually whilst she replied. “Him? He's gone to bed."

Tilting my head towards left, I frowned, slightly, "Already?"

“It's way past midnight so yes.” Deepika shrugged and kept her lingering gaze on me nonetheless.

“Already?” I mumbled to myself as I stole a quick glance at the clock hung on the wall. True to her words, the time was almost 1 AM.

“What's the matter with you? Why are you so happy?”

Shrugging, I avoided her gaze. "No reason."

"Was that a sex call, then?"

"Of course, not!"

“Well, you do look awfully... pleased by the phone call so I'm guessing he did more than just apologizing.”

Heat climbed to my cheeks at the mention of him. For reasons previously unknown, just a mere thought of him was producing very foreign and sometimes, uncomfortable responses inside of me. But what I said next clearly proved to be an answer to that. "I think I'm falling for him."

Deepika stilled as though I'd dropped a bombshell over her. Which, I perhaps did. "What?"

Biting onto my lower lip, I nodded sheepishly, “Yup. I admitted it. Out loud.”

“You're in love with him?" Deepika's eyes widened so much that I worried it might actually pop out of their respective sockets for once. "Come here," She then said, eagerly patting the seat beside her.

Once I folded my legs on the sofa, I turned to face her and waited for her to rile me up with questions.

"Are you Officially declaring that you've begun to grow feelings for him? All just with a phone call?"

Rolling my eyes at her, I scoffed,
"Don't be silly."

"Please elaborate."

I sighed, "I don't know how to explain it, Em, I just think that I'm smitten with him. He just... Well, he's perfect, Deepika. I never thought I'd say this about somebody, let alone him, but
it's true. I've been so blind and adamant at complaining about all his faults that I failed to realise how I really feel about him deep inside.
I'm surprised I've let him into my life so fast because I know I have issues when it comes to trusting people. My natural instinct is to push them away. And just the fact that we've known each other for just two months was preventing me from taking things further. I know that for a lot of people, two months is a good amount of time to learn to fall in love with each other but such is not the case with me. I mean, for God's sake, it took me a long time to fully trust you guys. Remember how I was in my intern year? I had no friends! And to make matters worse, a thought had been lingering in my head that I need to cross a stipulated timeframe in order to feel something so strongly toward someone. I hate to say it, but I thought it was too soon, and a part of me still believes that. But it was only recently that I allowed my heart to realise that there was no such thing as right timings for things like this. You can't hold or suppress your feelings, especially if they're only becoming more clear and concrete every passing day. So yes, after thorough contemplation, I want to believe that I'm falling in love with him and it's not wrong to feel this way. Especially since he's already my husband."

A truly heartfelt smile climbed up to Deepika's face. If I wasn't wrong, a tiny bit of moisture had even accumulated in them, and when she eventually spoke, I realised that they were just signs of immense happiness. "I'm so proud of you."