I'm not okay

Chapter eight

"FIVE! Oh I'm going to watch them all" I say the excitement never once leaving me as he put on the second TinkerBell and I cuddle into his side.

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Flower and I are currently driving to my new home.

I fell asleep in the plane after a minor panic attack when the plane started.

It was so scary.

How I got pushed back in my seat while this pressure hurt my ears and stuff.

I didn't like it.

Flower's car got flown here too so I'm in the same car as yesterday in my booster seat.

Honestly I'm really nervous to meet the rest of my brothers.

Flower said that they already love and like me but that doesn't stop me from still thinking the opposite.

Subconsciously I'm picking at the skin around my nails from all those nerves.

My heart is beating loudly in my head and the pain I am experiencing doesn't help with that at all.

After half an hour we drive through this beautiful black gate before we continue driving to the house.

House well a very very big house.

Like really big

It's really pretty, just like the hotel.

Flower parks the car before coming to my side and picking me up since I don't have shoes.

Not that I mind being picked up and carried.

I like it.

Being close to Flower makes me feel save and happy.

It makes me feel loved.

For the first time in my life.

I have my Buddy close to me just like Flower.

Flower bought Buddy for me years ago.

That's really sweet.

He looked really emotional when he saw Buddy in my arms for the first time.

I'm wearing some clothes which are also from Asher.

I hope he doesn't mind me wearing them.

What if he hurts me because I am wearing them.

I didn't ask him.

Oh no

Oh

No

No

No

My heart rate picks up just like my breathing.

Flower notices and turns my face so our eyes meet.

"Breathe princess, just breathe. Deep breaths with me. In....and out. Good job, I'm proud of you, can we do that again. In.....and out" he instructs me gently.