Sophia Jones was a few months away from finishing her master and she was terrified. She didn't want to admit to anyone including herself that she didn't know what to do after. All she's ever known is studying and studying. Getting into the world wit...
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"Do one thing every day that scares you."
Eleanor Roosevelt
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The motivation I felt this morning was unusual. It felt like a sudden release of dopamine that made me all motivated and ready to conquer the world.
It wasn't the first time something like this happened. I would wake up motivated and be in high spirits for a couple of hours before reality would hit me. Then, I'll go back to my usual self.
On days like these, I'm rather impulsive. It feels like it's New Year and I'm making my year resolution, making all sorts of promises and plans that deep down I know will never accomplish.
The downside of this is when the next morning comes and I would say 'screw it' and go back to my comfort zone. Some days it doesn't even last for a whole day before I would call it quits.
What my impulsive side made me do today is going to see a movie by myself.
I got tired of asking my friends to come to see movies with me. For some reason, there was always an excuse ready. What I came to understand recently is that it wasn't because they didn't want to see a movie but because they didn't like the movies I proposed.
They called my taste peculiar. What they mean is that my taste was too weird and boring for them.
"One ticket for Moonfall please"
It felt awkward to book a ticket solely for myself and I was rather conscious of my surroundings. I bet no one really cared what I was doing and they only looked at me because they were in a hurry to buy theirs. But still, in my mind, I felt weird standing there alone.
Seeing a movie alone is not a bad thing. It's one of the best decisions since no one bothers you or eats loudly next to you or steals your food. There are also no useless conversations or stupid questions asked during the movie or they don't force you to leave halfway because they find it boring.
The guy in front of me looked clumsy. My instincts were telling me he was new to the job by the way he was typing and looking around desperately. He even dropped my card on the desk, two times, before he gave it back to me.
I've been there, all nervous and clumsy. Ready to cry because I would feel overwhelmed by the new environment and the number of tasks I had to do. So, I kind of understood him and I was secretly rooting for him. 'It gets better!' I wanted to say but I didn't want to make it more uncomfortable for him. He'll only get more self-conscious if I say that.
I got inside the room and the first thing that surprised me was the empty chairs. Maybe it's still early. I told myself trying to find the logic behind it.
I checked my phone. It was 17:55, only five minutes left before the movie was starting and there was still no sign of anyone. Am I in the right room?
