Teen Romance

Broken Smile/ My All

I wokeup with my head resting on siennas shoulder and her hands wrapped around me, I rubbed my eye as Sienna woke up too "I'm so tired" she mumbled "lesbians" we heard someone speak. We both jumped off the couch screaming and saw tracy covering his laugh, I sighed and plopped down on the couch "fuck you tracy" I said while sniffing, I slowly sat up "who's making bacon because that smells good as fuck " I said while jumping off the couch and running into the kitchen. I groaned in pleasure "that smells so good" I said as I looked beside me and turned pale, gus was in my kitchen cooking, he turned and we made eye contact he looks the same as last time. I ran to my room and shut the door behind me why's everything happening so fast I thought to myself. I huffed before going to the bathroom and taking a quick shower, I stepped out and wrapped a towel around my body as I walked over to my closet to pick out clothes. I found a green tanktop and my dad's old jeans

instead of cussing at myself for not putting my dirty clothes in the laundry and having to wear ass clothes I js slipped my tanktop and dad's jeans on before lighting a cigarette. I inhaled deeply before exhaling, I held the cigarette in my mouth as I kicked out my favorite socks under my bed and slipped them on before I unlocked my door and walked out, exhaling the air from the cigarette I inhaled. on the couch sienna, Tracy and gus sat eating the bacon with a side of scrambled eggs and orange juice, I felt my stomach grumble Damn im hungry "there's some left in the kitchen " sienna said as I looked to my right and walked into the kitchen, I dipped my cigarette in the ashtray on the kitchen counter before I scooped a small portion of the scrambled eggs and took two pieces of bacon before pouring myself some orange juice. I took out a fork and shoved it into my eggs before I took a bite "nice socks" Tracy said looking back at me "thanks" I replied as I walked to my room, before I could even reach the hallway my foot slipped making me fall backwards, I shut my eyes tightly getting ready to collide with the ground but I felt nothing except a pair of strong hands holding my waist. I slowly opened my eyes and lifted myself up before looking down, a puddle of water on the floor from my wet hair and a bit of orange juice I had a tight grip on the plate so nothing fell "should've fell, maybe some sense could've been knocked into my brain" I said without  looking up, a voice chuckled before speaking "ur right, I should've let u fall" I looked up to see gus towering over me, the smile on his face immediately fell "what the fuck are you doing here?" I asked "what's it to you?" he replied with a raised brow "it's my house" I said and folded my arms "this is an apartment." he replied while Tracy tried to hold in his laugh in the back "ok well it's my apartment!" I said slightly raising my voice "and?" he replied with no emotion on his face "and I want you OUT" I said while pointing at the door. He looked over his shoulder, eyeing Tracy and sienna, he was about to open his mouth like he wanted to say something but before he could speak I sprinted to the bathroom without glancing at either of the two on the couch and slammed the door shut behind me , I felt tears stinging my eyes why the fuck am I crying , I walked over to the sink to wash my face but saw gus' hoodie on the edge of the sink, i don't know what came over me but I just had the urge to wear it so I did. As soon as I looked at myself in the mirror wearing his hoodie I let it all out as I fell on my knees, I sat there sobbing and hitting the ground repeatedly till my wrists started bruising, this went on for a good 20 minutes before I heard muffled voices outside the door "stop being a fucking pussy" I said to myself with clenched teeth before getting up and leaning against the door so I could listen "cmon gus stay" Tracy said while sienna spoke over him "I'll try convince her somehow gus" sienna said as she sighed "I gotta go right now " gus said in a low voice "gus-" Tracy said before getting interrupted "that's all" gus said before I heard some clanking of keys and shoes being put on. There was a moment of silence before gus spoke up "don't expect me to say anything, nothing to it don't expect no call" I heard footsteps moving towards the door before a door handle getting turned and pulled the doors locked "you can't get out gus, not until you open up to me" Tracy said as I heard light footsteps walking down the hallway and shutting the door sienna left to her room. Gus couldn't hold it in anymore as he shouted "she was the one Tracy! now that its done she was the one, she was the one that was worth my time now that she gone I know that I'm wrong for not just fucking tell her about laylas stupid pranks and coming clean to her when I saw her at the studio, that was my chance and I missed it" coming clean to me? As soon as I heard that line I ran out the bathroom and stepped into the hallway where Gus and Tracy looked my way. Gus' eyes were red as he held in the tears filling up his eyes, it all went silent and as 'awkward' as this was i took one or two steps forward before Gus looked me up and down and walked fast towards me he noticed his hoodie "Jules i-" he started "no Gus I just came out here to tell you to-" before I could complete my sentence he wrapped his arms around my shoulder pulling me close to him before dropping to his knees while his arms moved from my shoulders to my hips "one more chance to give and that's all I have, all I have left in my heart" he said while pointing at his heart "I've been through enough to know when your sad and were far apart" he said as raised his long arm up and wiped the tears off my face before standing up and carefully placing his hands on both sides of my face "give me some time and I will make you mine again, yeah?" he said/asked while looking at me anxiously fuck it "yeah" I replied to him in a low voice before he pulled me into a tight hug.

i would expect to smile, laugh, give him a kiss but as much as I want to right now this isn't a moment of happiness it's more of a moment of relief and having a chance to start over and make things perfect- scratch that- make things better than before, one thing I've learnt is that there's no such thing as perfect OR practice makes perfect, nothings perfect and best you can do is just live, you heard me, just living so don't give up on it so soon because things will definitely get better

One month later..
(TO BE CONTINUED ;))

A/N
HI GUYS, I'VE MISSED WRITING AND YOU ALL SO MUCH. I'M FINALLY DONE WITH YEAR 10!! (yes I'm only 16 😭) SO I'VE FINALLY FINISHED THIS CHAPTER WHICH I'VE ACTUALLY BEEN WAITING SO LONG TO WRITE AND PUBLISH SO HERE IT IS!! STAY TUNED FOR THE LAST CHAPTER (or not 🙈) << jokes unfortunately the next chapter might be the last chapter (90%) before I start writing other books (ps; tell me if I should write more lil peep books or other stories) or maybe a second book to this if I get ideas for it (it probably won't be long tho) but yea, that's the end of this chapter, until next time :))
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estimated timing for the next chapter 8/16/22